where to start?

where should i start? i havent updated this blog in ages. been lazy. heh...
life...i wouldn't say it's been bad...neither has it been good.
bad things - precious friend avoiding me... feeling lonely sometimes... seem to keep more things to myself now...especially when i'm down... don't know what i'm doing sometimes... still feel like giving up sometimes... like everything's too difficult... missing someone...
good things - a certain friendship getting better again... God is still with me even when i'm STUPID... family time has been good... bought my COAT! :D n some other "stuff", at last... had supper and a good chat with audrey; "thanks auds!!! we'll be having more of these chats rite??" .... looking forward to seeing some friends tomorrow...
hmmm...can't really think now...sleeppyyyy....

a few updates:
family dinner this year (8 Feb 2005) was different. us KIDS had to do the cooking! but it was fun... and us cousins had a good time together in the kitchen!! :D was sad that kev and alee couldn't be with us though... well, our cooking was pretty good... we got all our parent's approval. grin* and while we were "slaving" in the kitchen, the adults were playing scrabble out in the hall. later that night, the kids beat the adults flat in BOGGLE!!! wooo hoooo!!! we've grown smarter! lol...

they next day...visiting time!!! from PJ to Cheras to Ampang to Midvalley...went to visit some grandaunts since our grandparents are no longer around...as well as daddy's kor kor's place... was good to see some cousins there...and a niece.. my nephew wasn't there though. hopefully will see him tomorrow during the dinner (paternal side). my lil malay cousin has grown so tall!! looks more like a primary school kid rather than a 4 year old. she's so pretty... if only she wasn't so shy... reminds me of myself when i was young - won't talk to anyone but my mummy & daddy. hehe...

looking at my life now...the trials just doesn't stop coming...it's a roller coaster ride... up & down.. round & round... sigh* can't wait to go to Acheh or any other Tsunami affected country. although it'll be dangerous, i'd rather be there to see their suffering and learn to appreciate what i have. plus all my lil problems will seem insignificant then. my heart really does go out to these people...watching the videos of people losing their loved ones makes me cry...
"God...please comfort them...for nothing and no one can do so...."

~to bed~ zzzzz