VeRTiGo

Vertigo... A new word to me. Also a new experience.

Vertigo, a specific type of dizziness, is a major symptom of a balance disorder. It is the sensation of spinning or swaying while the body is stationary with respect to the earth or surroundings.
The effects of vertigo may be slight. It can cause nausea and vomiting and, if severe, may give rise to difficulty with standing and walking.

In February I experienced a sudden wave of dizziness; felt like I was floating when I walked. And everything was spinning when I lay down.
Now I've learnt it's called vertigo.
Doctor gave me some pills. Said could be my inner ear.

Anyway, had mild occurences since then.
But this week, on Wed night, it happened badly again. This time nausea accompanied it. Couldn't walk straight and had to lie down for a few hours.

This time, Doc said it could be my stomach as well.
Now I gotta go in for a blood test on Sunday.

Lord, whatever it is, I know You can heal me.

What scares me...

Work has been amazingly enjoyable this past week. Been getting closer to a couple of colleagues in Europe and the States.

The scary thing is... this might not last for too long... Not even in the next 1 year.

Weirdly it's not just the job that I'll miss, but the friends I've made all over the world. I can't imagine not speaking to them weekly if not daily, seeing them on video, fixing technical problems together... It's just such a depressing thought.
I've become so attached to them.

My prayer is that the time that I've known and will be still working with them won't be in vain. I pray that they'd catch a glimpse of You, Lord. May they be touched by Your love and Your beauty in some way.
I'd be the happiest woman on earth if in the future I find that all of these precious people have come to know You personally and are living and abundant life in You.

"Watch over them God, always protect and keep them. Fill them with your Joy and Peace that cannot be explained by the world. In Jesus' name I pray, amen."