-BE FAITHFUL-

last nite, i was suddenly struck by discouragement n a weird feeling of dullness...don't wanna mention the cause of it. but i just felt so low...so "tak bersemangat". was questioning myself why?? was asking God why?? even asked a few friends why?? in fact, i felt guilty bout feeling this way. i shouldn't be feeling this way...ARGH!! think i need a TIGHT SLAP in the face!! well...was talking to weeliem bout how i was feeling...n he greatly encouraged me with these 2 words - "BE FAITHFUL". yea...i guess that's all God wants us to do. be faithful. he's not gonna ask us how many souls we saved. he's not gonna ask us how many churches we built. he's not gonna ask us how much did we multiply our CG. He's not even gonna ask us how "holy" we were here on earth. but He WILL ask us how we used our gifts n talents...how we continued to run the race even when it was so hard...how we still served him n pressed on when things got rough. i wanna continue running the race. i wanna keep using n expanding my talents. i wanna serve Him all my life even in the little things; n even when it seems to be pointless. "God, give me the strength to keep going."