BiTTeR sWeeT

so many thoughts in my head....i can't think straight.... how did this happen???
how did i fall for u? how did i lose u? why can't i let u go? why does it hurt so bad? why can't i stop crying? if we're not meant to be, why did our paths have to cross?
-bitter sweet-
that's the only way i can describe the trip. it was fun. it was so great being close to u again. n yet it kept ripping my heart out. it was as if i had a wound...n someone started stabbing n scratching at it.
why do u do the things u do? i feel like i caused it. i feel like i am to blame.
part of me is happy that i made this visit. coz now it seems like i am weaker. i'd rather be the one hurting then to see u hurt. n i've seen the friends ur with. the company u have. they're all wonderful people. i love them. n they adore u. u have so much around u. i don't know why u ever felt like u needed me. u don't.
u have such a bright future before u. i'm glad i'm not in the way to stop that. maybe my purpose in your life was to ease ur study days in KL. but now, i'll only be a burden. glad i was there when u needed someone. now it's time for us to move on...our different ways...
my heart aches. i miss u. but there's nothing i can do.
-broken-