Starting anew...

Alot has happened in the past 2 days. Let's just say a chapter of my life has been closed. & now I'm left with a new blank page, not knowing where to begin.
For the past few months (maybe even more), God's sprirt has been prompting me about decisions & choices i had to make. & all this time, i've been trying to ignore it & reason with it. But i've come to a place where i can't run away any longer. i've been cornered.
I sorta made up my mind by saturday. But didnt have the strength to make a stand. I even doubted my choice, wondering if i was being selfish. But on sunday, God sent sister Joyce to pray for me during alter call. & she said things like "rachel, u need to move on...today is the day u take your 1st step." & i immediately knew what i had to do. it wasn't easy. it was painful. there were tears involved. but i believe that i had to get rid of this part of my life in order to grow & to fulfill my destiny & calling.
I also realized that when u place God in the centre of your situation, everything else seems small...& it doesn't hurt as much anymore.
Rewinding a lil, during sunday service, Pas Kenneth was preaching about the EVIL DAY-the days when we're down, distressed, desperate, disappointed..(the list of D words goes on), the devil comes and KICKS you!! that's when we need to Depend on the Lord. Jesus is the expert of our "D" days, & He will Deliver us.
In order to STAND when we're attacked by Satan, we need to put on the full armour of God. even so, many of us keep running away from our problems. Our armour only protects out front. & when we're running away, the devil is just sitting on our backs & stabbing us there. we need to TURN around, FACE him, and start HACKING!!
To those out there who are going through SHIT now...and are facing your EVIL DAYS, remember you're not alone. not only God is with you, your fellow Christians are here too. & thought u may not know it, MANY (& i mean MANY) are going through some kindda shit themselves. i believe that Satan is doing this to us because he knows we can be used powerfully by God, & he's terrified!! SO...PUT ON YOUR ARMOUR!! EQUIP YOURSELVES!! & FIGHT!!

^ thanks to all my brothers & sisters out there who have been supporting me & giving me strength. (especially ehter, ona & neo) nwcx..eventhough u dont really know what's going on in my life,just u being around has somewhat been a confort. & sunshine, thanks for always being successful in putting a smile on my face. :) the weather ain't that gloomy whenever you're around. ^