whoa!! im suddenly feeling healthy!! haha... not when it comes to food though.. let's see...captain ball last nite was AWESOME!!! the response was so good, i think all of us were surprised! n THANK GOD it didnt rain!! well... i think i haven't sweated that much for ages!!! n my face was so flushed!! like a tomato!! muahaha.. i thought the games were really good coz EVERYONE was bonding so well!! there was no fighting! no spitefullness! everyone just played "lovingly" if i could put it that way. there was really good sportmanship among every single person there. & to end it with a dinner together with more fellowship...the whole nite was...just..AWESOME... :P
thanks mich n dez for organizing it!! really should have it more often.
this morning...morning glory...then breakfast...then SWIMMING with weeliem & mich... it was nice! the sun was coming up...slowly making the pool like glistening crystal... simply BEAUTIFUL!!
after class...esther n i went to the GYM!! woo hoo!! for 10 mins! LOL... just wanted to use their dumbells ler..
but yea...feeling healthy...been exercising more i think.. grin*
BUT ...the only lack is GOOD food here...or finance for good food... oh well... be thankful with whatever we have.. :)
Phil 4:8
Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things.
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
Monday, September 27, 2004
~~~~~~~~~
to the person i used to make happy...but have now brought tears...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
why do you cause me so much guilt?
why do you make me feel so bad?
was all that we ever built
made of sadness and pain and regret?
didnt i give you my all?
maybe my all was too much to give
coz it took you away from me
and now i dont know how to live
if only i could erase the hurt
if only i could give you everything you want
if only i could take away the pain
but i very well know that i can't
there's only one person who can
He's our very own Daddy in heaven
just give Him your hand
and He'll lead you places you wont even imagine
so forgive me when i say, goodbye
i believe i've caused enough pain
it's time for you to fully rely
on our God Almighty, Comforter & Friend.
i will always love you
you will always be dear to me...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
don't we all wish we could turn back time? change things we did? change the way things turned out? i guess everything happens for a reason. it's comforting to know God's in control. but sometimes it's so hard to trust Him.
"Lord..take my away my unbelief."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
why do you cause me so much guilt?
why do you make me feel so bad?
was all that we ever built
made of sadness and pain and regret?
didnt i give you my all?
maybe my all was too much to give
coz it took you away from me
and now i dont know how to live
if only i could erase the hurt
if only i could give you everything you want
if only i could take away the pain
but i very well know that i can't
there's only one person who can
He's our very own Daddy in heaven
just give Him your hand
and He'll lead you places you wont even imagine
so forgive me when i say, goodbye
i believe i've caused enough pain
it's time for you to fully rely
on our God Almighty, Comforter & Friend.
i will always love you
you will always be dear to me...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
don't we all wish we could turn back time? change things we did? change the way things turned out? i guess everything happens for a reason. it's comforting to know God's in control. but sometimes it's so hard to trust Him.
"Lord..take my away my unbelief."
Thursday, September 23, 2004
I miSS...
people i miss:
-zach baby
-zher dearest
-wai foong
-michelle see
-kristy
-micah
*sigh* wish there was teleportation service.
-zach baby
-zher dearest
-wai foong
-michelle see
-kristy
-micah
*sigh* wish there was teleportation service.
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
. :GLOW: .
I wrote this specially for Leona darling...
hope u like it dear...really wanna see u smiling again....laughing again.. HUGZ*
Glow
I see you there
you're smiling
but something's wrong
there's no glow
there's no joy
My beloved friend
don't you know that
without your laughter
my world's a lil dimmer
my world's a lil darker
my world's a lil quieter
I know things ain't going your way
disappointments cloud your path
but God is always there
His light shines brighter than the sun
so let His love & joy shine through
coz
My beloved friend
don't you know that
without your laughter
my world's a lil dimmer
my world's a lil darker
my world's a lil quieter
hope u like it dear...really wanna see u smiling again....laughing again.. HUGZ*
Glow
I see you there
you're smiling
but something's wrong
there's no glow
there's no joy
My beloved friend
don't you know that
without your laughter
my world's a lil dimmer
my world's a lil darker
my world's a lil quieter
I know things ain't going your way
disappointments cloud your path
but God is always there
His light shines brighter than the sun
so let His love & joy shine through
coz
My beloved friend
don't you know that
without your laughter
my world's a lil dimmer
my world's a lil darker
my world's a lil quieter
Sunday, September 19, 2004
1st day at work
well, 1st day of THIS particular job that is... wei mee, lily & i were looking forward to it coz we were hoping to work together. there were 4 of us who clicked well, but only 3 of us were put together. oh well...no complains..
so...FIRST day of the job...CHAOS!! our shorts arrived late. the blades arrived late. our blades were falling apart even before we started blading!! what lousy old stock they must've given us!! in the end, our boss just bought duct tape to tape it up n secure our ankle area. how sad huh! at least the blades were black....so... not TOO obvious.
finally ready! with our standard chartered T-shirts, white shorts, elbow n knee pads....OFF WE GOOOO!!!.......oh no..uneven ground...try to turn to a stop...wHoA WhOa wHoA!!! *SPLAT* ouch! my poor bum! LOL... thank God that was the only time i fell - beFORE we started giving out the leaflets. one poor girl fell twice in front of people. wince*
at the end of the 3 hours...SWEATING like a pig....feet & ankles hurting like mad! boy were we grateful to take the blades off!!
speaking about the job, i suddenly realized that my prayers have been answered. i remember when they announced about the final year students mission trip in CF; my heart skipped a beat when i heard the word "Thailand". i knew i had to go. when i first decided to be part of the mission team to Thailand & Cambodia even though i'm not a final student, i was doubtful about how i was gonna get RM1000 in time. when i asked mummy about it, all she said was "If u choose to go on this mission, & u feel God is calling u to, He will provide...just pray." & so i did. but i was still doubtful. 1000 bucks is alot! for me that is.
but by the end of this holiday, plus another 2 saturdays of work, i would've raised more than half the cash i need for this trip. i know it's all God's doing...the jobs that came along..the timing of the jobs..it is all His perfect timing. "THANK YOU SWEET JESUS!!!"
night : watched a movie with a childhood friend. was cool. amazing how time flies...we were remembering the times we used to play catching n hide & seek. lol...it was all so long ago..
talked on the phone with someone dear to me...with NO fighting at last. left me with many questions...many memories...painful thoughts...*SIGH*
-LiFe GoEs On-
so...FIRST day of the job...CHAOS!! our shorts arrived late. the blades arrived late. our blades were falling apart even before we started blading!! what lousy old stock they must've given us!! in the end, our boss just bought duct tape to tape it up n secure our ankle area. how sad huh! at least the blades were black....so... not TOO obvious.
finally ready! with our standard chartered T-shirts, white shorts, elbow n knee pads....OFF WE GOOOO!!!.......oh no..uneven ground...try to turn to a stop...wHoA WhOa wHoA!!! *SPLAT* ouch! my poor bum! LOL... thank God that was the only time i fell - beFORE we started giving out the leaflets. one poor girl fell twice in front of people. wince*
at the end of the 3 hours...SWEATING like a pig....feet & ankles hurting like mad! boy were we grateful to take the blades off!!
speaking about the job, i suddenly realized that my prayers have been answered. i remember when they announced about the final year students mission trip in CF; my heart skipped a beat when i heard the word "Thailand". i knew i had to go. when i first decided to be part of the mission team to Thailand & Cambodia even though i'm not a final student, i was doubtful about how i was gonna get RM1000 in time. when i asked mummy about it, all she said was "If u choose to go on this mission, & u feel God is calling u to, He will provide...just pray." & so i did. but i was still doubtful. 1000 bucks is alot! for me that is.
but by the end of this holiday, plus another 2 saturdays of work, i would've raised more than half the cash i need for this trip. i know it's all God's doing...the jobs that came along..the timing of the jobs..it is all His perfect timing. "THANK YOU SWEET JESUS!!!"
night : watched a movie with a childhood friend. was cool. amazing how time flies...we were remembering the times we used to play catching n hide & seek. lol...it was all so long ago..
talked on the phone with someone dear to me...with NO fighting at last. left me with many questions...many memories...painful thoughts...*SIGH*
-LiFe GoEs On-
Friday, September 17, 2004
complications
why does something so simple become so complicated?
why does a day of fun turn into a night of thoughts & worries?
why does closeness bring guilt?
why do friendships have to be questioned?
why does talking only lead to fights?
why must people be affected by my actions?
why do i even exist?
why why why??
the CORRECT answer - God created me for a purpose...that i'm yet to find out...n i shouldn't focus on these lil problems in life... but i'm human...n it's difficult. i just feel sorry for those around me who are hurting as well...wish i could take it all away...
"to those whom i have hurt...i never meant to...i'm sorry i added to the scars...i'm sorry i existed in your life. if i had 1 wish...i would wish we'd have never met, if it reduces the pain u face."
why does a day of fun turn into a night of thoughts & worries?
why does closeness bring guilt?
why do friendships have to be questioned?
why does talking only lead to fights?
why must people be affected by my actions?
why do i even exist?
why why why??
the CORRECT answer - God created me for a purpose...that i'm yet to find out...n i shouldn't focus on these lil problems in life... but i'm human...n it's difficult. i just feel sorry for those around me who are hurting as well...wish i could take it all away...
"to those whom i have hurt...i never meant to...i'm sorry i added to the scars...i'm sorry i existed in your life. if i had 1 wish...i would wish we'd have never met, if it reduces the pain u face."
Thursday, September 16, 2004
CoNtEnTeD
i somehow feel...contented...maybe coz yesterday & today were very eventful & NOT spent on bumming around.
THURS: went to visit a Mal's mom & bro...it's been more than half a year since i saw them..so thought it was bout time i paid them a visit. took the lrt to Dang Wangi...walked down memory lane to the condo. MAN...it's so long ago...but many events are still clear in my mind. i was thinking to myself "do i regret choosing this path?"...not really...i guess i wouldn't be who i am now if not for the joys & tears i had to endure during my younger years.
so anyway...took the lift up to the 34th floor. oops! i keep forgetting the floor they live on. was greeted at the door by BOTH parents...all so warm n smiley. it was REALLY good to see them. felt like the good ol' days. well..as usual they tried to stuff me with food... i updated them bout my life... mal's mom was VERY happy to hear that i'm single.. LOL...she's so cute. still wants me to be her daughter in law...grin* she even did my nails after that. some nail art thingy. damn cool. she gave me some to do on my own.
rewinding a lil...beFORE the nail part...TUNG HONG comes back from school!! boy hasn't he grown!! he was much smaller than me when i gave him tuition. but now he's bout the same height. AND becoming very good-looking. can tell he's a gurl magnet just like his brother!! :P
& sooo...aunty, tung hong n i went for lunch..n shopping...n dinner (with uncle)...basically i spent the WHOLE day with them. it was super fun!
but WAIT! the fun has not ended...night as come.. it's GURL'S NITE OUT!! woo hooo!! rushed back from kl...took a quick shower...waited for baby (pei tze) to reach my house n then OFF to bangsar!! i thought it was gonna be 5 gurls (all from prime coll), but there were 2 other gurls. & man did we click fast! ALL of us clicked so well that we're now planning a holiday (STRICTLY GURLS) at the end of the year. hope it isn't all talk n no action.
hmmm..havent hung out with so many girls for a long time...as my friends would know, majority of my friends are guys. n it gets boring sometimes.. "NO OFFENCE guys!! i still love u all..." :P it's just that i think gurls need to hang out with their species once in awhile. it's really refreshing. u gurls out there should know what i mean. i havent laughed so much in a long time.
Sunny, Pei Tze, Nellie, Jocelyn, Mei (May) & Voon...U CHICKS ROCK!!! :D
FRI: took lrt (AGAIN) & monorail to KL, looking or Menara Shazan. damn sesat man...had to ask directions a couple of times. apparently it's called Menara Prime or something now. well, i had to be there to meet with the "employer" whom i'm gonna work for the following saturdays. it was funny how we girls slowly bunched together. it was because it was SO obvious that we're out of place; the odd ones out. EVERYONE there are dressed formally for work..n there's us girls wearing jeans, denim skirts, tank tops, sleeveless tops. the more girls arrived..the noisier we got. LOL...it's cool how fast we made friends and started chatting like old time buddies.
when our boss arrived, we proceeded to be briefed by the client. i'm actually looking forward to this "roller-blading" job. something new. plus it's just distributing fliers. no sales required. yeay!
friday nite...met up with my old church friends. catching up on the months we havent met up. bumped into a few more friends at william's (best cheese naan).. one whom i haven't seen for years. was good getting in touch with her again.
all in all it's been a great week. hols are ending..but im looking forward to seeing all my beloved friends in cyber. miss them all greatly.... 2nd SEM!! HERE I COME!!
*croaking* (losing voice) :(
THURS: went to visit a Mal's mom & bro...it's been more than half a year since i saw them..so thought it was bout time i paid them a visit. took the lrt to Dang Wangi...walked down memory lane to the condo. MAN...it's so long ago...but many events are still clear in my mind. i was thinking to myself "do i regret choosing this path?"...not really...i guess i wouldn't be who i am now if not for the joys & tears i had to endure during my younger years.
so anyway...took the lift up to the 34th floor. oops! i keep forgetting the floor they live on. was greeted at the door by BOTH parents...all so warm n smiley. it was REALLY good to see them. felt like the good ol' days. well..as usual they tried to stuff me with food... i updated them bout my life... mal's mom was VERY happy to hear that i'm single.. LOL...she's so cute. still wants me to be her daughter in law...grin* she even did my nails after that. some nail art thingy. damn cool. she gave me some to do on my own.
rewinding a lil...beFORE the nail part...TUNG HONG comes back from school!! boy hasn't he grown!! he was much smaller than me when i gave him tuition. but now he's bout the same height. AND becoming very good-looking. can tell he's a gurl magnet just like his brother!! :P
& sooo...aunty, tung hong n i went for lunch..n shopping...n dinner (with uncle)...basically i spent the WHOLE day with them. it was super fun!
but WAIT! the fun has not ended...night as come.. it's GURL'S NITE OUT!! woo hooo!! rushed back from kl...took a quick shower...waited for baby (pei tze) to reach my house n then OFF to bangsar!! i thought it was gonna be 5 gurls (all from prime coll), but there were 2 other gurls. & man did we click fast! ALL of us clicked so well that we're now planning a holiday (STRICTLY GURLS) at the end of the year. hope it isn't all talk n no action.
hmmm..havent hung out with so many girls for a long time...as my friends would know, majority of my friends are guys. n it gets boring sometimes.. "NO OFFENCE guys!! i still love u all..." :P it's just that i think gurls need to hang out with their species once in awhile. it's really refreshing. u gurls out there should know what i mean. i havent laughed so much in a long time.
Sunny, Pei Tze, Nellie, Jocelyn, Mei (May) & Voon...U CHICKS ROCK!!! :D
FRI: took lrt (AGAIN) & monorail to KL, looking or Menara Shazan. damn sesat man...had to ask directions a couple of times. apparently it's called Menara Prime or something now. well, i had to be there to meet with the "employer" whom i'm gonna work for the following saturdays. it was funny how we girls slowly bunched together. it was because it was SO obvious that we're out of place; the odd ones out. EVERYONE there are dressed formally for work..n there's us girls wearing jeans, denim skirts, tank tops, sleeveless tops. the more girls arrived..the noisier we got. LOL...it's cool how fast we made friends and started chatting like old time buddies.
when our boss arrived, we proceeded to be briefed by the client. i'm actually looking forward to this "roller-blading" job. something new. plus it's just distributing fliers. no sales required. yeay!
friday nite...met up with my old church friends. catching up on the months we havent met up. bumped into a few more friends at william's (best cheese naan).. one whom i haven't seen for years. was good getting in touch with her again.
all in all it's been a great week. hols are ending..but im looking forward to seeing all my beloved friends in cyber. miss them all greatly.... 2nd SEM!! HERE I COME!!
*croaking* (losing voice) :(
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
:.gRateFuLLnEss.:
results were out yesterday. it was a time of suspense. my results would determine the rest of my holidays; back to cyber to study, OR bumming around somemore...
all this time i was just praying that i won't fail more than 1. i was so sure i didnt pass at least 1. i felt i did really badly. especially power systems. MAN!! i was just stoning in the exam room. couldnt think. couldnt concentrate. my mind was somewhere else. was emotionally unstable. i thought that was it. no chance to pass that paper.... usually i'm pretty sure of passing my papers. but this sem, i was pretty sure i would fail.
opening student info centre...achievements... praying praying praying...hoping hoping hoping...
pass...pass...pass...pass...pass...pass... OH MY GOSH!! I CAN'T BELIEVE MY EYES!!! i passed all 5 subjects!!!! still staring at my results....the only words that cross my mind are "LORD!!!thank You SOOO MUCH!!!"
just when i thought there was no hope. just when i thought God couldn't help me...He did. it's always easy to say "Trust in Him", but when it comes to exams, it's a different story.
i know my cgpa has dropped. but passing when i thought i would fail is good enough. & i want ALL the glory to be given to Jesus...i couldn't be more thankful than this.
all this time i was just praying that i won't fail more than 1. i was so sure i didnt pass at least 1. i felt i did really badly. especially power systems. MAN!! i was just stoning in the exam room. couldnt think. couldnt concentrate. my mind was somewhere else. was emotionally unstable. i thought that was it. no chance to pass that paper.... usually i'm pretty sure of passing my papers. but this sem, i was pretty sure i would fail.
opening student info centre...achievements... praying praying praying...hoping hoping hoping...
pass...pass...pass...pass...pass...pass... OH MY GOSH!! I CAN'T BELIEVE MY EYES!!! i passed all 5 subjects!!!! still staring at my results....the only words that cross my mind are "LORD!!!thank You SOOO MUCH!!!"
just when i thought there was no hope. just when i thought God couldn't help me...He did. it's always easy to say "Trust in Him", but when it comes to exams, it's a different story.
i know my cgpa has dropped. but passing when i thought i would fail is good enough. & i want ALL the glory to be given to Jesus...i couldn't be more thankful than this.
I'm forever grateful
to You
I'm forever grateful
for the Cross
I'm forever grateful
to You
That You came
to seek and save the lost.
Sunday, September 12, 2004
OUCH!!
all i can say is PPAAAIINNNN!!!! my throat hurts...hope i dont come down with the flu or something...n my ear piercing hurts!! think it's infected. sigh* it's red n swollen n hot. :( sucks!!
*frown*
*frown*
Saturday, September 11, 2004
WHAT'S WRONG?!?!
what's wrong with me?!?! i seem to have a talent in getting ppl upset or pissed off. sigh*
maybe only one person who knows what i'm talking about would be reading this. & i'm sorry again... guess i'm just a nuisance on this earth.
maybe only one person who knows what i'm talking about would be reading this. & i'm sorry again... guess i'm just a nuisance on this earth.
Friday, September 10, 2004
3 dates
yesterday...
1. had a wonderful "date" with a close friend. guess we haven't been spending much time together due to all the happenings in our individual lives. but yesterday was a time to catch up and just find out how each other was doing..."thanks wee wee for a great day!!" :) hugz* (hope i don't get whacked by all his fans)
2. 9pm...met up with 3 gurlfriends in bangsar...was really great seeing sunny, nellie n jocelyn. we used to hang out when we were in prime. but went our separate ways after that. we really went thru alot together during those "prime days". lol... good AND bad. well, we had alot of good laughs...n aLOT of picture taking... grin* GURLS!!! too bad 2 of them had to leave early. nvm...we're having another gurly day out next week... WOO HOO!! cant wait!!!(just hope exam results wont ruin everything...*fingers crossed*)
3. well, met up with kor kor after that. supper...part of a movie with his cute lil brother...then yum cha again with his friend...THEN home to bed. :P
MAN!!! the days have been just flying by!! hols are almost over.... NNNOOOooOOoOooOoOoo....
Thursday, September 09, 2004
-LaSt NiGhT-
dinner + foosball + yum cha + latte @ 8....free coffee...jason lo, adam & marriane (how to spell ar?) live + ona's craziness + good company + pool = a pleasant night of fun & laughter
*GRIN*
*GRIN*
hurts
It only hurts when u cry
I'm only sad when there's tears in your eyes
I can't lie and say that I'm fine
It only hurts when u cry
I'm only sad when there's tears in your eyes
I can't lie and say that I'm fine
It only hurts when u cry
hApPy HoLiDaYz??
hmmmm..it's been a long time since i've been here. guess i got lazy after it died. tried updating it earlier today but something's wrong with blogger la. cant republish anything.
n now i gotta type everything again. SIGH*
well, exams was sucky. wasnt in a good emotional condition at that time, so i guess it affected my studies abit. really hoping and praying that i won't fail more than 1 paper. :(
after exams, went to CF camp in PD. was SOOOO looking forward to the SUN, SEA, SAND and...not gurls lar... BUT, boy were we disappointed!! kena con man!!! it was hardly a beach!! maybe 2-3 feet of sand only.. lol...oh well, it was a fun camp even thought we didnt get our sun, sea and sand. got to know a few ppl better... AND do some catching up with ppl whom i couldnt see during exam period.
i personally thought it was a good camp coz we were made to ponder upon things we usually DONT think about. its pretty scary though, thinking bout how much we really love Jesus. we easily say we do, but how far are we really willing to go for Him? i hope that one day i can TRULY mean what i sing; "i would go to the ends of the earth for You", "i would run for a thousand years...swim to the ocean floor..", "Lord, i give You my heart, i give You my soul, i live for You alone.."
there was ONE bad thing about camp. i had a few things on my mind that were bothering me. couldnt sleep the first nite, which is weird for me. i usually fall asleep within a minute of my head touching the pillow. :P thank God i got to clear things up after camp. spent time chatting with someone and cleared all misunderstandings and assumptions. glad to be friends again...great to have u back!! u know who u are... grin*
after camp it was WORK WORK WORK!!made new friends... most of the gurls i worked with were nice and pleasant to work with. was pretty fun la overall...DESPITE the screw up on the last day. but yea, i dont wanna go there. oh ya!! played with many ADORABLE kids too!! :D
went to MALAYSIAN IDOL on friday. was pretty fun.. :P mich, david, sarah and i got to sit at Vick's family & friends' seats!! grin*
after the 4 days of work...it's been lepak lepak lepak....chill chill chill...bumming bumming bumming...feels great having nothing to do!! after the stressful sem, i really needed this.
btw, EHTER DAHLING....i miiissss uuuuuuu......
n now i gotta type everything again. SIGH*
well, exams was sucky. wasnt in a good emotional condition at that time, so i guess it affected my studies abit. really hoping and praying that i won't fail more than 1 paper. :(
after exams, went to CF camp in PD. was SOOOO looking forward to the SUN, SEA, SAND and...not gurls lar... BUT, boy were we disappointed!! kena con man!!! it was hardly a beach!! maybe 2-3 feet of sand only.. lol...oh well, it was a fun camp even thought we didnt get our sun, sea and sand. got to know a few ppl better... AND do some catching up with ppl whom i couldnt see during exam period.
i personally thought it was a good camp coz we were made to ponder upon things we usually DONT think about. its pretty scary though, thinking bout how much we really love Jesus. we easily say we do, but how far are we really willing to go for Him? i hope that one day i can TRULY mean what i sing; "i would go to the ends of the earth for You", "i would run for a thousand years...swim to the ocean floor..", "Lord, i give You my heart, i give You my soul, i live for You alone.."
there was ONE bad thing about camp. i had a few things on my mind that were bothering me. couldnt sleep the first nite, which is weird for me. i usually fall asleep within a minute of my head touching the pillow. :P thank God i got to clear things up after camp. spent time chatting with someone and cleared all misunderstandings and assumptions. glad to be friends again...great to have u back!! u know who u are... grin*
after camp it was WORK WORK WORK!!made new friends... most of the gurls i worked with were nice and pleasant to work with. was pretty fun la overall...DESPITE the screw up on the last day. but yea, i dont wanna go there. oh ya!! played with many ADORABLE kids too!! :D
went to MALAYSIAN IDOL on friday. was pretty fun.. :P mich, david, sarah and i got to sit at Vick's family & friends' seats!! grin*
after the 4 days of work...it's been lepak lepak lepak....chill chill chill...bumming bumming bumming...feels great having nothing to do!! after the stressful sem, i really needed this.
btw, EHTER DAHLING....i miiissss uuuuuuu......
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
brain dead
cold..freezing actually...brain isn't working...stuck...fickle...can't decide...what question? oh no...the clock is ticking...c'mon...decide!!! think think think!!! God help me....
rush rush rush!! brain is dying...body is freezing...bladder is about to burst...no...no time to pee... write somemore...squeezing my brain dry.................tick tock tick tock.....TIMES UP!!! *sigh*
-happenings in the exam room this morning-
rush rush rush!! brain is dying...body is freezing...bladder is about to burst...no...no time to pee... write somemore...squeezing my brain dry.................tick tock tick tock.....TIMES UP!!! *sigh*
-happenings in the exam room this morning-
Thursday, August 12, 2004
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
littlest things...
last night during CF committee prayer, weeliem shared a lil testimony reminding us that God isn't just interested in the big things in our lives, but the little as well... & guess what!!! I experienced that this morning!!
i overslept again...woke up feeling very disappointed in myself for missing this tutorial again...thoughts of getting barred crossed my mind...so anyway, i got up to check mmls if i could replace my tutorial...took really long to load the page...finally... announcements:
"tutorial classes ECA04, ...(n 2 others) have been cancelled because i'm on leave. will resume next week."
WOO HOO!! thank u Jesus for letting me oversleep!! if not i would have gone all the way to class just to come back. i would've probably been searching the whole FOE building for my class too.. :P well...be reminded that God cares for even the smallest things in your life. like wasting time going to a cancelled class, & like weeliem being reminded of something at the exact right timing.
~HE'll be a real friend if u only let HIM~
i overslept again...woke up feeling very disappointed in myself for missing this tutorial again...thoughts of getting barred crossed my mind...so anyway, i got up to check mmls if i could replace my tutorial...took really long to load the page...finally... announcements:
"tutorial classes ECA04, ...(n 2 others) have been cancelled because i'm on leave. will resume next week."
WOO HOO!! thank u Jesus for letting me oversleep!! if not i would have gone all the way to class just to come back. i would've probably been searching the whole FOE building for my class too.. :P well...be reminded that God cares for even the smallest things in your life. like wasting time going to a cancelled class, & like weeliem being reminded of something at the exact right timing.
~HE'll be a real friend if u only let HIM~
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
POT!!
this post is specially dedicated to my POT (Power Of Three) group...althought NONE of them would be reading this. well, this G12 system was launched a few weeks back. & sunday night was our 1st REAL meeting...we were to meet at boon wei's house in puchong. so pastor's wife came to my house n i tailed her car there, after fetching 3 other gurls; 1 followed my car.
was surprised when both of us actually started opening up & sharing bout our current problems & things we've been through. i already see potential close relationships within our POT. well, 2 of us were so into our chat that we didnt pay attention to the roads at all. sigh* forgot the way there.
...entering boon wei & jay's home.... WHOA!!! it's soooo neat & clean & cosy & beautiful!! even has a beautiful view overlooking KL, with Genting in sight. dinner was AWESOME!! made our own popiahs.. hehe... and had watermelon & ice-cream for desert. we also created our very own "ice-cream popiah"!! was pretty good..EVERYONE started trying it.
the whole night was so filled with laughter...we all actually clicked better than i thought we would. really thank God for putting me in this group with a bunch of GREAT GURLS!! can't wait to get to know them better. :D looking forward to our future cell meetings...woo hoo!!
~'butterfly effect' is an awesome movie! last night was nice..company was nice too~
was surprised when both of us actually started opening up & sharing bout our current problems & things we've been through. i already see potential close relationships within our POT. well, 2 of us were so into our chat that we didnt pay attention to the roads at all. sigh* forgot the way there.
...entering boon wei & jay's home.... WHOA!!! it's soooo neat & clean & cosy & beautiful!! even has a beautiful view overlooking KL, with Genting in sight. dinner was AWESOME!! made our own popiahs.. hehe... and had watermelon & ice-cream for desert. we also created our very own "ice-cream popiah"!! was pretty good..EVERYONE started trying it.
the whole night was so filled with laughter...we all actually clicked better than i thought we would. really thank God for putting me in this group with a bunch of GREAT GURLS!! can't wait to get to know them better. :D looking forward to our future cell meetings...woo hoo!!
~'butterfly effect' is an awesome movie! last night was nice..company was nice too~
heaviness
this is the time of the semester that i hate. assignment due dates...finals...even MIDTERM aint totally over. sigh* 24 hrs just doesn't seem enough sometimes..
what's wrong with me? what's with this feeling of heaviness? gloom...tiredness maybe...stress? don't really know what's bothering me. *sigh*
"Heavenly Father i just pray that You'll remove this spirit of heaviness from me...whatever may be causing it..& Lord i just place my life in Your hands once again...fill me & help me live life abundantly just as You desire me to. In Jesus' name, amen.."
what's wrong with me? what's with this feeling of heaviness? gloom...tiredness maybe...stress? don't really know what's bothering me. *sigh*
"Heavenly Father i just pray that You'll remove this spirit of heaviness from me...whatever may be causing it..& Lord i just place my life in Your hands once again...fill me & help me live life abundantly just as You desire me to. In Jesus' name, amen.."
Friday, July 23, 2004
random things..
just completed my lab report - the LAST one for this sem!! woo hoo!! ....but 2 more assignments to go...& i havent even started..man!! i gotta stop procrastinating!!!
it's cold..so nice to sleep...i see mui mui ehter sleeping peacefully, curled under her blanket...i wanna do that tooooo...but no..i've had my sleep. must start doing work. but before that, just need to update on the past happenings.
main things i recall:
worship during CF this week was good...i felt like the worship environment was pretty high compared to certain weeks when it just feels dry. thanks charis for doing a great job leading us in worship. im reminded, that worhip is not something that WE get something out of (although songs DO minister to us n all). but the TRUE reason for worship is to give unto GOD. He deserves ALL praise & glory. & that's what we express through songs & clapping of hands etc..
the topic for CF was FORGIVENESS. when we were asked to say a silent prayer & release the person whom we have not forgiven from our heart's prison, i couldnt think of anyone. after searching my heart, & asking God about it, i realized that there WAS someone i was feeling bitter & holding a grudge against. it just hurts when a friend whom u thought the world of, proves u wrong, & u start realizing that ur being used, & that the person ain't sincere...well, i let it go on tuesday. :)
wed was mainly a day to study for my microwave test on thurs. was really worried bout it, but thank God, it turned out better than i expected.
spent the rest of thurs with an old friend who came back from uk. esther, ju, his fren ken & myself practically did nothing in summit. lol.. played a lil pool...lepaked around...had dinner in sushi king...was fun la.. :P
the "down" of the day was the arguments i was having with a special friend. sigh* i always ask this question.. "why do we always hurt the ones we love?". i hate all this! i wish i could be the only one hurting. i cant stand the ppl around me suffering because of me.
still trusting God to work all things out for good..
sigh* im tired...n lazy to continue blogging... shall end here.. cant wait to see the melakans & someone who says i've been "abaikan"ing later... DREAMS THAT ROCK, here we come!! (hope we get new dreams & visions!)
it's cold..so nice to sleep...i see mui mui ehter sleeping peacefully, curled under her blanket...i wanna do that tooooo...but no..i've had my sleep. must start doing work. but before that, just need to update on the past happenings.
main things i recall:
worship during CF this week was good...i felt like the worship environment was pretty high compared to certain weeks when it just feels dry. thanks charis for doing a great job leading us in worship. im reminded, that worhip is not something that WE get something out of (although songs DO minister to us n all). but the TRUE reason for worship is to give unto GOD. He deserves ALL praise & glory. & that's what we express through songs & clapping of hands etc..
the topic for CF was FORGIVENESS. when we were asked to say a silent prayer & release the person whom we have not forgiven from our heart's prison, i couldnt think of anyone. after searching my heart, & asking God about it, i realized that there WAS someone i was feeling bitter & holding a grudge against. it just hurts when a friend whom u thought the world of, proves u wrong, & u start realizing that ur being used, & that the person ain't sincere...well, i let it go on tuesday. :)
wed was mainly a day to study for my microwave test on thurs. was really worried bout it, but thank God, it turned out better than i expected.
spent the rest of thurs with an old friend who came back from uk. esther, ju, his fren ken & myself practically did nothing in summit. lol.. played a lil pool...lepaked around...had dinner in sushi king...was fun la.. :P
the "down" of the day was the arguments i was having with a special friend. sigh* i always ask this question.. "why do we always hurt the ones we love?". i hate all this! i wish i could be the only one hurting. i cant stand the ppl around me suffering because of me.
still trusting God to work all things out for good..
sigh* im tired...n lazy to continue blogging... shall end here.. cant wait to see the melakans & someone who says i've been "abaikan"ing later... DREAMS THAT ROCK, here we come!! (hope we get new dreams & visions!)
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