my CHILDhood

Looking at a picture frame on my desk;
- a photo of 4 lil toddlers wearing the same red & white striped baju, sitting on a sheepskin on a carpet with a grinning grandfather, in a house full of memories.... this is the photo of my cousins and I when we were little. Still in pampers and all. :P
The message at the back of the photo frame goes like this:

"Remember back when we were all slightly chubby but didn't care? Or when rubiks cubes were considered cool? When we were super heroes one day, secret agents the next and police & thieves an hour later? Think about these times because it's where we came from and it's why we are here now. :) Love, ALEEE"

I miss all of you; Kev, Alee, Justin, Val & Pet...we had a fantastic childhood!! And the memories will never fade from my mind and heart. Thinking bout those times really makes me wanna go back. Back to the time when everything was simple...when every place was our playground. When our imagination knew NO limit. When we could all fit in the bathtub and still have place to splash about. When our toys ranged from BARBIE to GUNS to CARS to LEGO to SOFTOYS to POTIONS to CUSHIONS to POWDER to WET TISSUE BALLS & SUPER SOAKERS.......the list goes on....

I'll never trade my childhood for anyone else's.

So....when's the next "Chai & Thong" Cousin Reunion?!??!?! This time our vacation should be overseas!! hehe.... :P

-The Reason-

I look around
What do I see?
nothing...absolutely nothing
I don't wanna go on
I don't wanna try anymore

but I remember Your words
I remember the people
I remember the needs
I remember my purpose
Most of all, I remember
what You did on the cross

You are the reason
my Friend
my Lover
my Saviour
my Lord
my God
My Jesus...
You're the reason I go on...

I AM still alive.

Yes i AM still alive....haven't had the semangat to blog though...

things i've learned and experienced for the past 2 months:

~ I'm not the kind of leader who can stand in front of a crowd and speak.

~ one of the things that can keep you going through a shitty day is the way a lil child's face lights up when she sees you even though she was cranky before that coz she just woke up. little Cambodian Kytie's smile with front teeth missing just melted my heart. will never forget that instant.

~ one of the things that make all the sweat and tiredness worthwhile is when a young village girl who can barely speak english comes up to you when you're about to leave and gives you a hug saying "sister, I love you." I will always have a place in my heart for young Rotna. I must return to Cambodia to see her. I pray that she'll get to know the true God and really grow into a powerful woman of God.

~Cambodians can carry ANYTHING on motorbikes...including fridges, big house gates...

~ Malaysia is VERY green and rich!!! Appreciate it!!!

~ Perhentian is the LIFE!! :D basking in the sun all day and lazing around in the pool and snorkling and enjoying the cool night "bayu laut" is the best holiday you can get. n SHARKS are cool!!! lol... my first encounter with sharks in the sea.

[me, leona, & mel staring at our reflections by the sea; actually more like showing our butts!! :D ]

~ It's a small world after all.... You meet the last people you think you'll meet in the least expected places!!! Cousin's wedding... penang friends.. ?????

~ There's absolutely NOTHING to do in Fraser's!! :P But family time there was precious... picture perfect: a family of 4 praying by the waterfall.
Love you daddy, mummy, pet...

~ Sometimes you don't understand why you love a friend so much. But I thank God for such friends. :)

~ I LURVE dancing... but I'm not good enough. When will I ever get the proper training. :(

hmmmm...too many things on my mind right now... signing out.. *beep*

dedication....

I see my beloved friend dying inside... there's no more laughter... no more craziness... there's sorrow.. there's pain... there's emptiness... there's dryness...
WHY?????
anyway, darling.. this song is for u:
Icy chills round your heart
A heart that's made of stone
It seems like
Life is out to get you
To destroy what you want
I know that, that you blame me for all that you go through
It could be, so different if you would just let it go

You're all alone
Running out of ways to
Hold on to hope
And it always slips away
You're all alone
But you don't have to
Pretend to cope
There is a brighter way

If you would change your perspective
You'd see that it is true
Life is not always what you want
Sometimes it's hard to bear
I'd be with you, and help you in all that you go through
I love you, let Me change your heart by coming in

You're all alone
Running out of ways to
Hold on to hope
And it always slips away
You're all alone
But you don't have to
Pretend to cope
There is a brighter way

okay.. u DON'T blame Him for anything... :P... but yea... He loves u... n i'm sure he cries when u cry... n he feels ur pain... don't give up hope. u have so much in store for u. i know that. it's just blurred by all the things that ur going through. n it looks like it's just darkness... but it's not. morning will come. n u will see the sunshine again. n smile again. n laugh again. n be crazy again...heh... can't wait till u get there.
just remember that ur not walking alone. Jesus is there. maybe u just need to hold His hand n u will see the path better? i know it's easy to say... but u'll get through it. HUGZ* i'm here for u too... u know that. love u sweetie... MUAKS*

words cannot express the GREATNESS of my God!!!

OH MY GOSH!!! i cant express how im feelin now!!! im happy!! MORE than happy!!
im practically jumping around in my seat!! felt like dancing around my room. haven't stopped singing since it happened... can't stop marvelling at God's greatness...

aaahhhhhh!!!! i want to SHOUT IT TO THE WORLD!!! :D
here's the deal. i needed a certain amount of money. i signed up for the mission trip with NO idea where the money was gonna come from. the amount of money i need is a really huge amount for me. i never dreamed of saving up enuf. but i just trusted God to provide and faithfully prayed for it. not just money for me but for the whole team. as the date got closer, i admit i started getting worried.
but guess what. God is GOOD if u didn't already know! and He's awesome and wonderful and indescribable!!! he provided for me!! MORE than i needed!! so much more!!!
my mom just smses me 20 mins ago to tell me the good news. n i haven't stopped rejoicing.

honestly... i never dreamt that i would experience this kindda miracle. i always hear it happening to other ppl. but not to me. money has always been an issue. i don't starve. but i DO go hungry sometimes. but God is still great. and He knows the right time to do certain things.

rewinding back to sunday. pastor's sermon was totally awesome! he spoke about PRAISE as well as God's greatness... MAN!!! seriously, if u think about it. look at the vastness of the skies....EVERYTHING that u see when u look up, isn't even 1% of the earth's sky. THAT's how great the sky is. all the more great is the God who created it....WWHHOOOOOAAAA..... suddenly u become nothing. a speck of dust? microorganism?
ur problems also reduce to nothing. just KNOWING n REALIZING how great our God is.. MY God.... I can't express fully in words how amazing He is....

even thinking about the paper i screwed up was really disappointed by.... so what? what if i fail? God is still great! n my failing doesn't change anything. I still serve the almighty God....and that's the biggest success that i'll ever have!!

Thank u Daddy God...Jehovah Jireh.... thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u....

~rejoicing~

the "aftermath"

okay... my last post was nasty...that was RIGHT after my paper. that was how i was feeling.... cried my eyeballs out after that....(how childish)...don't think i've ever cried over an exam before. but this time i was really crushed. i was really confident that i could score at last. i really knew my stuff for this subject. even when i saw the questions i knew i could do it. but carelesness killed all my hopes of scoring. thought i could prove to myself that i could do it. that i wasn't stupid. thought i could make my parents and God proud. guess i was wrong.

after blogging n crying, i msged my mom... calmed down... opened the daily bread and my bible.... guess what words popped right out?? "WHERE IS YOUR TRUST???"haha... it's funny how everytime i'm faced with a circumstance or disappointment, the daily bread will have something DIRECTLY for me.
anyway...Jeremiah 17:5-10 spoke to me personally. i learned that trusting Him is far greater than exam results or anything else.
God's peace also took over... after my outburst of anger, disappointment and tears, i finally felt comfort and peace that i know only my Daddy God can give me.

mummy replied my sms some time later. she said "it's okay...just trust that God has a greater purpose". she also said that she was praying for God to comfort me. thank God for parents like mine. :D wouldn't trade them for the world.

"Lord, whatever your purpose is, I want to trust You...whether or not i pass or fail, my trust is still in You. whether or not i have enough, or i lack, i will still trust in You."

!%^@$%@#@^%^#$^&!!!!

*&!%^&!$$#$@!%^&$@%^@$*&^!&$#%@*&%$#@%^$@%$@^&#^!!!!!!!!
the only word ringing in my head now is..yes... the Four letter F word!!
WHY?!?!?! COZ IM A FREAKIN IDIOT WHO HAS NO BRAINS WHATSOEVER!!!

WHAT'S THE FREAKIKNG POINT IN STUDYING SO HARD AND GOING TO LECTURES TO PAY ATTENTION, WHNE UR JUST GONNA BE AN IDIOT AND SCREW IT UP IN UR FINALS ANYWAY??!?!?

i wont feel bad if i KNOW i didnt study for that particular part. BUT WHEN I FREAKING KNOW WHAT THE HECK THEY'RE ASKING AND I COULD HAVE SCORED FOR THE DAMN PAPER, I MUST CARELESSLY, STUPIDLY MAKE A DUMB ASS MISTAKE AND SCREW THE WHOLE PAPER!!! !^&*%!^&$@^&%$#%!^&$@^%$@^$#@^%$%!^&%!!!!!!!

arrgghhhh!!! GOODDD!!! WWHHYYY?!?!?!? am i destined to do badly in exams??? in uni???
just when i thought i could pull up my grades with this paper.... n You know that i knew my stuff... but i had to make a STUPID STUPID STUPID MISTAKE!!!!!!
what's the point of studying anymore?!??!? i dont have the mood to go on. might as well just screw up the rest of my papers too. wont make a freaking difference!

IDIOT!!! <- yup! that's ME!!!

~happenings~

prophesying prayer - POWERFUL stuff!! really experienced a release and a growth in faith when we practiced on Easter Sunday.


Earthquake tremors~ exciting experience!! mine went like this.....
esther & i were at our own comp tables as usual. bea was sitting on the floor leaning on esther's cupboard. micah was on the mattress. we were just talking, when suddenly bea asked, "why is everything shaking?". then only did esther and i realize that our tables and chairs were swaying. at first esther thought someone was shaking her chair. from outside, chern liang asked everyone "did u feel that??". gim shouts "i thought my chair only shaking!!". my first thought: who's jumping so hard??? LOL... chern liang said jokingly at first "RUN!!" :P
we all ran out to the balcony to see if other residents were feeling it. wai choong then came over and said "better leave the building now!"
esther was still in disbelief, "really must go ar?"
we all just grabbed our wallets and handphones and went out. the moment i stepped out our front door, i heard people from every floor starting to run down the stairs. gates were slamming...people were shouting...everyone was rushing. we soon joined the flow of people rushing to get out. honestly, i was half expecting so see the building starting to collapse. :P

reaching outside, we saw that EVERYONE from EVERY block was rushing out. the whole community of Cyberia residents were outside man!!! what a sight!! it was interesting to see everyone gathering people...everyone was trying to call friends, and pretty soon we were in one whole group together. althought the lines were VERY jammed!
moments later the police, bomba and all arrived. gave orders for the whole building to be evacuated. we were given instruction to go to the main road. and so, many of us moved to a quieter part of the road and gathered in groups to pray. we held hands and prayed for friends, family, the nations, especially indonesia....amazing experience!

anyway, we had to wait outside for bout 3 hours before they let us back in.
i wasn't afraid of dying... i was afraid for my friends and family... i was afraid for the people who are most affected. the indons again.... :( my heart was just crying out for those who were experiencing death of loved ones, lost homes....
Life is short. Gotta stop fooling around and really doing things that matter.


Seniors graduation ~ was holding back my tears. failed to do so at certain instances. looking at all their faces, and knowing that we're not gonna be seeing them (ever or not as often)....oh man....gonna miss them so much!!!! sob*


-gotta study gotta study gotta study gotta study gotta study gotta study gotta study-

: : L.O.V.E : :

was reading 1 John today... and i came across a few verses that talks about love.

1 John 2:9-11 ~ says that even though we claim to be in the light, if we hate our brother, we're living in darkness.
I John 3:11-15 ~ speaks of if we do not love, we remain in death. anyone who HATES his brother/sister (friends, family, etc...) is a MURDERER!, and you know that NO murderer has ETERNAL LIFE in Him.

doesn't these 2 passages say enough about LOVE?!?!?! why then are we getting our focus all wrong, and instead of loving our brothers and sisters who have fallen or are living in darkness, we're shunning them or TRYING to make them holy?!?!?
isn't God's first characteristic, LOVE? isn't God himself LOVE? GOD=LOVE
i think we should all know that by now. YES God is a HOLY God, but the 2 most important commandments that He gave us is "Love the Lord your God with all your heart" and "Love your neighbour as yourself".
sadly, i don't see this. i see people judging people for being less "holy" than themselves. i see people hating each other. i see people shunning those who have left CF or church. WHY? i believe satan is really messing with our mindsets and making us get all our perspectives wrong. if he can remove love from the church, he can do anything. coz we would've lost our MAIN essence of being a Christian.

we really gotta stop focussing on people's weakness and sin, and start loving them as creations of our AWESOME GOD!!! and HATE?!?! it's satanic!! throw it away!!! being judgemental?!?! the bible says, "judge and you will be judged!" -by God himself.

so LOVE!!! it's not that difficult. just see each person as a child of God. we need to respect and care for every single being created by our loving God.

-my passion-

Daddy in Heaven...

dearest Daddy in Heaven,

thank U for today;
thank U for life;
thank U for daddy, mummy, and Pet;
thank U for friends;
although my eye is swollen and hurts, i thank U that i HAVE eyes!! both of em' ;
alhtough i'm stressed out by assignments and exams, i thank U that i can study,
and thank U that assignments are OVER!!! grin*
thank U for the birds i hear singing now;
thank U that i have EARS to hear them sing...without music in my life... shudder* scary thought! ;
thank U thank U thank U!!! there's too many things to thank U for!! thank U for loving me unconditionally...thank U for giving me the ability to love as well...
thank U.

new hairdo

SIGH* i've always been wanting a change in hairstyle. straightening has never worked. i have stubborn hair with a mind of it's own. so now i CURLED it instead.
my hair has always been in between...not straight, not curly...wavy n frizzy... so why not curl it ALL THE WAY???
reactions? GURLS : it's nice!!! suits u...
GUYS: "hey...u really look like a poodle now. :P", "what happened to ur
hair?", "why??", "i like ur last hairstyle better", "why perm?
look old la..." etc... u get the picture.
conclusion?
girls are either too nice to say it's ugly
OR guys tend to like straight hair

shrug* what the heck!! shall make do with what i have... of course, original is still the best. kindda miss my hair already. heh...

CAMERONS!! the OAs, the cold air, the nature..

LOCAL MISSION TRIP!!! i actually didn't sign up whole heartedly....because i knew that would use up some of my money saved up for the Cambodia mission trip. but in the end i did. something told me i should go.
preparations was pretty rushed and last minute, as everyone was busy with tests and assignments. but we made it.

the drive: was FUN!! first time driving up a highland!! a REAL WINDY one too!! good experience. hehe... and auds' car is really nice to drive up. easy to handle & zippy.

checking in: after eating in the town (ringlet) we followed uncle isaac to the place we were gonna stay in - Winterhome. mich, celine & i sat his TRUCK up from town to the place. BOY was THAT an experience!!! the trip was bumpy. we were standing at the back of the truck. the icy wind was freezing our asses off.. lol... and driving UP the hill to Winterhome was like sitting (more like standing) on a roller-coaster ride. the 3 of us didn't once stop laughing the whole drive there. must've been high on the coldness & excitement.
when we reached the place... whoooaaaa.... are we sure we're on a mission trip? feels more like a vacation. the house was beautiful...surrounded by forests and a lake.. it had a fireplace too (but not used). it was very antique in a way... old and beautiful. even the BATHROOMS look so antique.

visiting the Orang Asli people:
there's too much to mention. it was beyond what i expected. we could only see 1 or 2 houses from the main road. the REST of the houses were built along the way, down the hill (i don't know how to explain this). the children ran around barefooted, with such familiarit with the place. i was so scared some of the little ones would fall down the "cliff". but none did. they moved around much more easily than us.
the people welcomed us warmly. the kids stared at us with beautiful big wide eyes. cutting the long story short... the children were shy but obedient and responsive. they did everything we asked them to. the thing that caught me off guard was the fact that most of them didnt understand us. lol....i was wondering why some of them didn't answer me; they just giggled and talked to each other. then only did i find out they weren't speaking BM. they spoke their own orang asli language. ;P
ADORABLE!!! they are SOOOOO ADORABLE!!! and good.. they don't cry when they fall. they keep quiet when we're talking. they look after each other (brothers & sisters)....their bond, i believe, is so strong.

the adults...we visited them in their homes & ministered to them on sunday during their service. their houses are made of wood and bamboo....mostly of which were built by 1 person only. there are holes everywhere...the floor can cut if not careful. & the houses are the size of one master bedroom or smaller. with 8 people living in one!!! bedroom, kitchen, hall, everything is within that lil space.
their lives are so simple....they have so little. money & food is scarce. they can hardly sleep at night due to the cold. and yet, im sure they complain less than us. we have EVERYTHING if seen from their eyes. and yet we have SO much to complain about. this trip really reminded me to be thankful for everything....coz God has given me so much!
even though they have so little, they gave us gifts - a "sumpit", a pokok ayamas each...they're just so generous and wished they could give more. we had to keep saying it's okay... we didn't want anything.
i really hope i can return there. my heart melted when a makcik cried as we were departing. she said "balik lah sini....tinggal dengan makcik....makcik rindu..." and she was hugging us...and kissing our hands... :(

one more thing..the nature.... was indescribable...went hiking to our morning devotion place. and the scenery just took my breath away.

"Almighty God...Your creation is SO beautiful!! we could never thank You enough.... and Lord, i pray that You will always watch over the orang asli's....protect them & envelope them with Your love and peace...and fill them with Your joy...so that they will be without lack because they live in You....in Jesus' name....amen! "

p/s: the team was fantastic!! Ken, Johnson, Kae Ee, Kevin, Julian, Alvin, Audrey, Celine, Michelle, Melisa...everyone had something to offer... it was a pleasure working with u guys!!! KEN, u were a GREAT LEADER!! thank you..

. :23rd Burfday: .

it's been sometime since this event... but i thought i'd still post it anyway.me....turning 23... sigh...i don't like the number. :(

Fri
didn't actually plan on celebrating it. just wanted to chill out with some close friends. so after a conference in church, i went to esther's house. mel picked us up from there and we all went to fetch sautheng. asked shern to meet us at mont kiara. messsaged david asking if he wanted to join us. .....and so.. what was expected to be a quiet little gathering, turned out to be quite a large one!! :D shern brought his whole gang of about 10-12 people. but they left early. and david brought a lil cyber gang. :P the snacks were good!! (sandwiches & sausages!! yummy!! *salivating*) the wine was good.... grin* ate at ming tien after that. not to forget, when the clock struck 12 that night, the calls and messages kept pouring in. many of whom i was surprised to hear from. all in all....it was a good night.






Sat
MOTHER-DAUGHTER day!!! wheeee!! mummy, pet & i went to klcc for lunch and shopping. hehe... was a good day of just hanging out. although i didnt buy anything. only my sister did. we shared a pair of shoes though. it's SOOOOO chun!! can't wait to wear em. but no ocassion. sigh*had dinner at a neighbour's hse that night since it was his mom's bday too. MAN!!! THE FOOD WAS FANTASTIC!! his family was friendly. :P & i was the only chinese there... lol..had a pleasant surprise when a friend called from Perth. :D made a perfect end to a great birthDAY.

saying goodbye

saying goodbye sucks. to a friend i've known for years. and also to a friend i've known for....3 weeks? although the latter is definitely being more of a friend than the former. sigh* how do people get so cold and distant all of a sudden??? how does the closeness just vanish overnight??? at the same time, how do people get so close overnight too?? weird world!!!
whatever it is...i'm gonna miss these 2 people. :(

combine prayer meeting last nite - had a bad case of gastric... pastor prayed for me... i actually felt immediate relief. it still hurt a lil but at least i could stand. believing God for complete healing for my stomach and abdominal area.... been having tummy problems for too long. i know my God can heal!!!

: : Bring Me Back : :

I'm wandering on the wide path
the easy way
but I feel lost
I don't know what I'm doing

I want to be close to You...

Holy Spirit, bring me back
back to the narrow path
where I can walk with You
where my life makes sense again
where no matter what problems may come my way
as long as You're holding my hand
I know I can overcome anything

My life seems fine
there's no pain, no tears
but I feel far from You
and that's all that matters

I want to be close to You...

Rum Jungle + chor tai ti

last night was interesting... had the most spontaneous KL trip ever!! we were just mamaking in dharoos till 12 sumthing... suddenly someone suggests going to kl. "okay" came our replies. :P
so 3 of us neighbours head home to change and then down to Rum Jungle. first time being there.. really cool place! i like it!! :D
after the place closed, we went to mamak again since the guys were hungry... then back to paramount garden!! yes, im so amused with the fact that i now have neighbour friends.. hehe...
so we continue our craziness in jon's place by playing chor tai ti... was hilarious!! i couldn't stop laughing... raj being the cause of most of the laughter. sigh* it's so sad that jon is going back home to perth next monday.. :( gonna miss him. oh ya! we took lotsa photos!! grin* anyways, we didnt realize the time passing.. before we knew it, it was 7am!!! siao!!! back home to bed it was... and i had to wake up at 10 sumthing too...

been a dead fish most of today althought it was eventful ... visited tung hong & parents. had GREAT home cooked and baked food. yummy! came home at 6 sumthing, just to get my car and head to midvalley to meet kris and parents for dinner. popped into jon's place before leaving to say hi to him and raj. wish i could be out with them again tonite but...im too tired... yawn*
dinner with the Tan's was awesome.... good food...and then just hung out in their hotel room... was getting really sleepy...

man!! thinking bout the work load i haven't touched and which is due when classes restart.... SCARY!!

~work work work~

where to start?

where should i start? i havent updated this blog in ages. been lazy. heh...
life...i wouldn't say it's been bad...neither has it been good.
bad things - precious friend avoiding me... feeling lonely sometimes... seem to keep more things to myself now...especially when i'm down... don't know what i'm doing sometimes... still feel like giving up sometimes... like everything's too difficult... missing someone...
good things - a certain friendship getting better again... God is still with me even when i'm STUPID... family time has been good... bought my COAT! :D n some other "stuff", at last... had supper and a good chat with audrey; "thanks auds!!! we'll be having more of these chats rite??" .... looking forward to seeing some friends tomorrow...
hmmm...can't really think now...sleeppyyyy....

a few updates:
family dinner this year (8 Feb 2005) was different. us KIDS had to do the cooking! but it was fun... and us cousins had a good time together in the kitchen!! :D was sad that kev and alee couldn't be with us though... well, our cooking was pretty good... we got all our parent's approval. grin* and while we were "slaving" in the kitchen, the adults were playing scrabble out in the hall. later that night, the kids beat the adults flat in BOGGLE!!! wooo hoooo!!! we've grown smarter! lol...

they next day...visiting time!!! from PJ to Cheras to Ampang to Midvalley...went to visit some grandaunts since our grandparents are no longer around...as well as daddy's kor kor's place... was good to see some cousins there...and a niece.. my nephew wasn't there though. hopefully will see him tomorrow during the dinner (paternal side). my lil malay cousin has grown so tall!! looks more like a primary school kid rather than a 4 year old. she's so pretty... if only she wasn't so shy... reminds me of myself when i was young - won't talk to anyone but my mummy & daddy. hehe...

looking at my life now...the trials just doesn't stop coming...it's a roller coaster ride... up & down.. round & round... sigh* can't wait to go to Acheh or any other Tsunami affected country. although it'll be dangerous, i'd rather be there to see their suffering and learn to appreciate what i have. plus all my lil problems will seem insignificant then. my heart really does go out to these people...watching the videos of people losing their loved ones makes me cry...
"God...please comfort them...for nothing and no one can do so...."

~to bed~ zzzzz

life.....and LIFE CAFE!!!

classes...F.R.I.E.N.D.S....hot sun...spoilt fan...chatting...music...singing...dancing...lectures....tutorials...black out....hot!!! class cancelled!!! wheee...ericson...dance practice...gym...mission's trip meeting... n finally...LIFE CAFE!!!

the ambience was nice...could smell the food...tummy growling...music playing...emcees were great..."welcome welcome"...yadda yadda yadda....MAKAN TIME!!! sigh* i seemed alot hungrier before i started eating... don't know why i seem to lose my appetite everytime there's a barbeque. :( oh well...it was fun anyway... games time... met quite a few new people...all friendly & sporting!! :) was funny making fools of ourselves... lol...

fellowship...berbonding...song presentations by alvin, lenard, darren & last of all our FAN DANCE!! but guess what!! nearing our dance, Leona comes up to me "who's having our song???".. i stare at her blankly...silence...AAAAAAHH!!! we start running around...."AUDREY!! do u have the song???" "was i supposed to bring it?" "oh man!!" "LAPTOP!! do u have ur laptop?".." yes, but i don't think i have the song.." "CELINE!!! ur pen drive!! did u bring it??" "yes.." "is the song still in it??" "yes" .."AAAAAHH!! YES!!!" *all of us run to the laptop with the pen drive* "NOOO!! it can't read it!!" *running around again* "BOSS!!!!" to cut it short, Leona n boss had to go up to his place to burn the song.. :P we're such bozos!!! hahahahhaha....
finally... we're ready...the song's playing... wait a minute.. what the??? where are the words?? oh my gosh!! what's wrong with the song??!?!? what the heck!! the dance has to go on...so we had to dance to some weird, second voice, sounds n music only, techno-ish song... ROFL... weird and annoying... but nevermind.. guess we did OOOkay...

Praise GOD that everything went pretty well.... people had fun... n most of all...we got to fellowship with SO MANY new people. what's more? no one wanted to leave when it was over....everyone was still hanging around even when the chairs n tables were taken away. the guards had to chase us away.
one more night to go!! although i won't be there... but i pray that everyone will be blessed!! AMEN!!

: : ETERNALLY : :

i look to the sky
fluffy clouds in endless blue
n i think "how beautiful"
i look at the trees around me
the grass adorned with flowers
oh so brightly...

how wonderful our God created
the earth & all within it
how marvelous He made us
in His own awesome image
just to be with Him
eternally...

sometimes life seems meaningless
full of troubles & sadness
"what's the point?" we wonder
how can we not remember?
that Christ will come again
to take us home to be with Him

it's beautiful
it's unbelievable
it's indescribable
it's undeniable
eternally...

CUZ time!!!

and so....there's no more excuses for not studying... Cyber Christmas is over...well, sorta, after LIFE CAFE anyway. gotta work hard this semester! sigh* it's what i say EVERY sem! but i really gotta get things together... been pretty slack for the past few sems.

CC...many dissapointments...discouragement...arguments...tears...in the end, we had to just surrender it to God, & let Him use whatever we had to touch & make an impact on those who came for the event. I guess God was teaching many of us to TRUST Him & not to depend on our own abilities and strength.after the night, there were still certain things & words said that left me hurt & disappointed. but i just thank God that the message WAS still delivered through the drama & band.

COUSINS!! man!!! at last!! i get to see my "kor kor Kevin"!! yes...that's what we all used to call him when we were younger. coz he's the oldest cousin. of course now it's just "kev". :P it's been at least 2 years since i last saw him. it's so sad though that his sister couldn't make it back...Justin's back though. Val's always been around. so it's only Alicia who's MIA. now there's only 5 of us together, when there should be 6. thinking back on all the good times we had together. we practically knew each other ALL our lives. grew up together. ate together, bathed together, played together, got caned together... LOL...
FRI & SAT - tiring but fun and pleasant. friday night, after dinner in Kim Gary's, 5 of us + kev's friends played boggle & CHARADES!! hahahaa....THAT was fun!!! we all laughed till we cried!! :D especially when justin had to act out "i'm having premenstruation period pains"!!! ROFL....
saturday - took them to The Curve, IKEA, IKANO & Tesco. had lotsa coffee & curry puffs in IKEA. :P later that night, we went to hartamas to look for our uncle's restaurant pub, "Backyard". some aunties and second cousins were there too. had dinner there then left to play pool & foosball!!! wheeee... was fun!! :)
oh well...it's a week of classes again...can't wait for the weekend to see them again....
* hope i get to go to NZ to join kev & alee there.