prophesying prayer - POWERFUL stuff!! really experienced a release and a growth in faith when we practiced on Easter Sunday.
Earthquake tremors~ exciting experience!! mine went like this.....
esther & i were at our own comp tables as usual. bea was sitting on the floor leaning on esther's cupboard. micah was on the mattress. we were just talking, when suddenly bea asked, "why is everything shaking?". then only did esther and i realize that our tables and chairs were swaying. at first esther thought someone was shaking her chair. from outside, chern liang asked everyone "did u feel that??". gim shouts "i thought my chair only shaking!!". my first thought: who's jumping so hard??? LOL... chern liang said jokingly at first "RUN!!" :P
we all ran out to the balcony to see if other residents were feeling it. wai choong then came over and said "better leave the building now!"
esther was still in disbelief, "really must go ar?"
we all just grabbed our wallets and handphones and went out. the moment i stepped out our front door, i heard people from every floor starting to run down the stairs. gates were slamming...people were shouting...everyone was rushing. we soon joined the flow of people rushing to get out. honestly, i was half expecting so see the building starting to collapse. :P
reaching outside, we saw that EVERYONE from EVERY block was rushing out. the whole community of Cyberia residents were outside man!!! what a sight!! it was interesting to see everyone gathering people...everyone was trying to call friends, and pretty soon we were in one whole group together. althought the lines were VERY jammed!
moments later the police, bomba and all arrived. gave orders for the whole building to be evacuated. we were given instruction to go to the main road. and so, many of us moved to a quieter part of the road and gathered in groups to pray. we held hands and prayed for friends, family, the nations, especially indonesia....amazing experience!
anyway, we had to wait outside for bout 3 hours before they let us back in.
i wasn't afraid of dying... i was afraid for my friends and family... i was afraid for the people who are most affected. the indons again.... :( my heart was just crying out for those who were experiencing death of loved ones, lost homes....
Life is short. Gotta stop fooling around and really doing things that matter.
Seniors graduation ~ was holding back my tears. failed to do so at certain instances. looking at all their faces, and knowing that we're not gonna be seeing them (ever or not as often)....oh man....gonna miss them so much!!!! sob*
-gotta study gotta study gotta study gotta study gotta study gotta study gotta study-
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
: : L.O.V.E : :
was reading 1 John today... and i came across a few verses that talks about love.
1 John 2:9-11 ~ says that even though we claim to be in the light, if we hate our brother, we're living in darkness.
I John 3:11-15 ~ speaks of if we do not love, we remain in death. anyone who HATES his brother/sister (friends, family, etc...) is a MURDERER!, and you know that NO murderer has ETERNAL LIFE in Him.
doesn't these 2 passages say enough about LOVE?!?!?! why then are we getting our focus all wrong, and instead of loving our brothers and sisters who have fallen or are living in darkness, we're shunning them or TRYING to make them holy?!?!?
isn't God's first characteristic, LOVE? isn't God himself LOVE? GOD=LOVE
i think we should all know that by now. YES God is a HOLY God, but the 2 most important commandments that He gave us is "Love the Lord your God with all your heart" and "Love your neighbour as yourself".
sadly, i don't see this. i see people judging people for being less "holy" than themselves. i see people hating each other. i see people shunning those who have left CF or church. WHY? i believe satan is really messing with our mindsets and making us get all our perspectives wrong. if he can remove love from the church, he can do anything. coz we would've lost our MAIN essence of being a Christian.
we really gotta stop focussing on people's weakness and sin, and start loving them as creations of our AWESOME GOD!!! and HATE?!?! it's satanic!! throw it away!!! being judgemental?!?! the bible says, "judge and you will be judged!" -by God himself.
so LOVE!!! it's not that difficult. just see each person as a child of God. we need to respect and care for every single being created by our loving God.
-my passion-
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Daddy in Heaven...
dearest Daddy in Heaven,
thank U for today;
thank U for life;
thank U for daddy, mummy, and Pet;
thank U for friends;
although my eye is swollen and hurts, i thank U that i HAVE eyes!! both of em' ;
alhtough i'm stressed out by assignments and exams, i thank U that i can study,
and thank U that assignments are OVER!!! grin*
thank U for the birds i hear singing now;
thank U that i have EARS to hear them sing...without music in my life... shudder* scary thought! ;
thank U thank U thank U!!! there's too many things to thank U for!! thank U for loving me unconditionally...thank U for giving me the ability to love as well...
thank U.
thank U for today;
thank U for life;
thank U for daddy, mummy, and Pet;
thank U for friends;
although my eye is swollen and hurts, i thank U that i HAVE eyes!! both of em' ;
alhtough i'm stressed out by assignments and exams, i thank U that i can study,
and thank U that assignments are OVER!!! grin*
thank U for the birds i hear singing now;
thank U that i have EARS to hear them sing...without music in my life... shudder* scary thought! ;
thank U thank U thank U!!! there's too many things to thank U for!! thank U for loving me unconditionally...thank U for giving me the ability to love as well...
thank U.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
new hairdo
SIGH* i've always been wanting a change in hairstyle. straightening has never worked. i have stubborn hair with a mind of it's own. so now i CURLED it instead.
my hair has always been in between...not straight, not curly...wavy n frizzy... so why not curl it ALL THE WAY???
reactions? GURLS : it's nice!!! suits u...
GUYS: "hey...u really look like a poodle now. :P", "what happened to ur
hair?", "why??", "i like ur last hairstyle better", "why perm?
look old la..." etc... u get the picture.
conclusion?
girls are either too nice to say it's ugly
OR guys tend to like straight hair
shrug* what the heck!! shall make do with what i have... of course, original is still the best. kindda miss my hair already. heh...
my hair has always been in between...not straight, not curly...wavy n frizzy... so why not curl it ALL THE WAY???
reactions? GURLS : it's nice!!! suits u...
GUYS: "hey...u really look like a poodle now. :P", "what happened to ur
hair?", "why??", "i like ur last hairstyle better", "why perm?
look old la..." etc... u get the picture.
conclusion?
girls are either too nice to say it's ugly
OR guys tend to like straight hair
shrug* what the heck!! shall make do with what i have... of course, original is still the best. kindda miss my hair already. heh...
Monday, March 07, 2005
CAMERONS!! the OAs, the cold air, the nature..
LOCAL MISSION TRIP!!! i actually didn't sign up whole heartedly....because i knew that would use up some of my money saved up for the Cambodia mission trip. but in the end i did. something told me i should go.
preparations was pretty rushed and last minute, as everyone was busy with tests and assignments. but we made it.
the drive: was FUN!! first time driving up a highland!! a REAL WINDY one too!! good experience. hehe... and auds' car is really nice to drive up. easy to handle & zippy.
checking in: after eating in the town (ringlet) we followed uncle isaac to the place we were gonna stay in - Winterhome. mich, celine & i sat his TRUCK up from town to the place. BOY was THAT an experience!!! the trip was bumpy. we were standing at the back of the truck. the icy wind was freezing our asses off.. lol... and driving UP the hill to Winterhome was like sitting (more like standing) on a roller-coaster ride. the 3 of us didn't once stop laughing the whole drive there. must've been high on the coldness & excitement.
when we reached the place... whoooaaaa.... are we sure we're on a mission trip? feels more like a vacation. the house was beautiful...surrounded by forests and a lake.. it had a fireplace too (but not used). it was very antique in a way... old and beautiful. even the BATHROOMS look so antique.
visiting the Orang Asli people:
there's too much to mention. it was beyond what i expected. we could only see 1 or 2 houses from the main road. the REST of the houses were built along the way, down the hill (i don't know how to explain this). the children ran around barefooted, with such familiarit with the place. i was so scared some of the little ones would fall down the "cliff". but none did. they moved around much more easily than us.
the people welcomed us warmly. the kids stared at us with beautiful big wide eyes. cutting the long story short... the children were shy but obedient and responsive. they did everything we asked them to. the thing that caught me off guard was the fact that most of them didnt understand us. lol....i was wondering why some of them didn't answer me; they just giggled and talked to each other. then only did i find out they weren't speaking BM. they spoke their own orang asli language. ;P
ADORABLE!!! they are SOOOOO ADORABLE!!! and good.. they don't cry when they fall. they keep quiet when we're talking. they look after each other (brothers & sisters)....their bond, i believe, is so strong.
the adults...we visited them in their homes & ministered to them on sunday during their service. their houses are made of wood and bamboo....mostly of which were built by 1 person only. there are holes everywhere...the floor can cut if not careful. & the houses are the size of one master bedroom or smaller. with 8 people living in one!!! bedroom, kitchen, hall, everything is within that lil space.
their lives are so simple....they have so little. money & food is scarce. they can hardly sleep at night due to the cold. and yet, im sure they complain less than us. we have EVERYTHING if seen from their eyes. and yet we have SO much to complain about. this trip really reminded me to be thankful for everything....coz God has given me so much!
even though they have so little, they gave us gifts - a "sumpit", a pokok ayamas each...they're just so generous and wished they could give more. we had to keep saying it's okay... we didn't want anything.
i really hope i can return there. my heart melted when a makcik cried as we were departing. she said "balik lah sini....tinggal dengan makcik....makcik rindu..." and she was hugging us...and kissing our hands... :(
one more thing..the nature.... was indescribable...went hiking to our morning devotion place. and the scenery just took my breath away.
"Almighty God...Your creation is SO beautiful!! we could never thank You enough.... and Lord, i pray that You will always watch over the orang asli's....protect them & envelope them with Your love and peace...and fill them with Your joy...so that they will be without lack because they live in You....in Jesus' name....amen! "
p/s: the team was fantastic!! Ken, Johnson, Kae Ee, Kevin, Julian, Alvin, Audrey, Celine, Michelle, Melisa...everyone had something to offer... it was a pleasure working with u guys!!! KEN, u were a GREAT LEADER!! thank you..
preparations was pretty rushed and last minute, as everyone was busy with tests and assignments. but we made it.
the drive: was FUN!! first time driving up a highland!! a REAL WINDY one too!! good experience. hehe... and auds' car is really nice to drive up. easy to handle & zippy.
checking in: after eating in the town (ringlet) we followed uncle isaac to the place we were gonna stay in - Winterhome. mich, celine & i sat his TRUCK up from town to the place. BOY was THAT an experience!!! the trip was bumpy. we were standing at the back of the truck. the icy wind was freezing our asses off.. lol... and driving UP the hill to Winterhome was like sitting (more like standing) on a roller-coaster ride. the 3 of us didn't once stop laughing the whole drive there. must've been high on the coldness & excitement.
when we reached the place... whoooaaaa.... are we sure we're on a mission trip? feels more like a vacation. the house was beautiful...surrounded by forests and a lake.. it had a fireplace too (but not used). it was very antique in a way... old and beautiful. even the BATHROOMS look so antique.
visiting the Orang Asli people:
there's too much to mention. it was beyond what i expected. we could only see 1 or 2 houses from the main road. the REST of the houses were built along the way, down the hill (i don't know how to explain this). the children ran around barefooted, with such familiarit with the place. i was so scared some of the little ones would fall down the "cliff". but none did. they moved around much more easily than us.
the people welcomed us warmly. the kids stared at us with beautiful big wide eyes. cutting the long story short... the children were shy but obedient and responsive. they did everything we asked them to. the thing that caught me off guard was the fact that most of them didnt understand us. lol....i was wondering why some of them didn't answer me; they just giggled and talked to each other. then only did i find out they weren't speaking BM. they spoke their own orang asli language. ;P
ADORABLE!!! they are SOOOOO ADORABLE!!! and good.. they don't cry when they fall. they keep quiet when we're talking. they look after each other (brothers & sisters)....their bond, i believe, is so strong.
the adults...we visited them in their homes & ministered to them on sunday during their service. their houses are made of wood and bamboo....mostly of which were built by 1 person only. there are holes everywhere...the floor can cut if not careful. & the houses are the size of one master bedroom or smaller. with 8 people living in one!!! bedroom, kitchen, hall, everything is within that lil space.
their lives are so simple....they have so little. money & food is scarce. they can hardly sleep at night due to the cold. and yet, im sure they complain less than us. we have EVERYTHING if seen from their eyes. and yet we have SO much to complain about. this trip really reminded me to be thankful for everything....coz God has given me so much!
even though they have so little, they gave us gifts - a "sumpit", a pokok ayamas each...they're just so generous and wished they could give more. we had to keep saying it's okay... we didn't want anything.
i really hope i can return there. my heart melted when a makcik cried as we were departing. she said "balik lah sini....tinggal dengan makcik....makcik rindu..." and she was hugging us...and kissing our hands... :(
one more thing..the nature.... was indescribable...went hiking to our morning devotion place. and the scenery just took my breath away.
"Almighty God...Your creation is SO beautiful!! we could never thank You enough.... and Lord, i pray that You will always watch over the orang asli's....protect them & envelope them with Your love and peace...and fill them with Your joy...so that they will be without lack because they live in You....in Jesus' name....amen! "
p/s: the team was fantastic!! Ken, Johnson, Kae Ee, Kevin, Julian, Alvin, Audrey, Celine, Michelle, Melisa...everyone had something to offer... it was a pleasure working with u guys!!! KEN, u were a GREAT LEADER!! thank you..
. :23rd Burfday: .
it's been sometime since this event... but i thought i'd still post it anyway.me....turning 23... sigh...i don't like the number. :(
Fri
didn't actually plan on celebrating it. just wanted to chill out with some close friends. so after a conference in church, i went to esther's house. mel picked us up from there and we all went to fetch sautheng. asked shern to meet us at mont kiara. messsaged david asking if he wanted to join us. .....and so.. what was expected to be a quiet little gathering, turned out to be quite a large one!! :D shern brought his whole gang of about 10-12 people. but they left early. and david brought a lil cyber gang. :P the snacks were good!! (sandwiches & sausages!! yummy!! *salivating*) the wine was good.... grin* ate at ming tien after that. not to forget, when the clock struck 12 that night, the calls and messages kept pouring in. many of whom i was surprised to hear from. all in all....it was a good night.
Sat
MOTHER-DAUGHTER day!!! wheeee!! mummy, pet & i went to klcc for lunch and shopping. hehe... was a good day of just hanging out. although i didnt buy anything. only my sister did. we shared a pair of shoes though. it's SOOOOO chun!! can't wait to wear em. but no ocassion. sigh*had dinner at a neighbour's hse that night since it was his mom's bday too. MAN!!! THE FOOD WAS FANTASTIC!! his family was friendly. :P & i was the only chinese there... lol..had a pleasant surprise when a friend called from Perth. :D made a perfect end to a great birthDAY.
Fri
didn't actually plan on celebrating it. just wanted to chill out with some close friends. so after a conference in church, i went to esther's house. mel picked us up from there and we all went to fetch sautheng. asked shern to meet us at mont kiara. messsaged david asking if he wanted to join us. .....and so.. what was expected to be a quiet little gathering, turned out to be quite a large one!! :D shern brought his whole gang of about 10-12 people. but they left early. and david brought a lil cyber gang. :P the snacks were good!! (sandwiches & sausages!! yummy!! *salivating*) the wine was good.... grin* ate at ming tien after that. not to forget, when the clock struck 12 that night, the calls and messages kept pouring in. many of whom i was surprised to hear from. all in all....it was a good night.
Sat
MOTHER-DAUGHTER day!!! wheeee!! mummy, pet & i went to klcc for lunch and shopping. hehe... was a good day of just hanging out. although i didnt buy anything. only my sister did. we shared a pair of shoes though. it's SOOOOO chun!! can't wait to wear em. but no ocassion. sigh*had dinner at a neighbour's hse that night since it was his mom's bday too. MAN!!! THE FOOD WAS FANTASTIC!! his family was friendly. :P & i was the only chinese there... lol..had a pleasant surprise when a friend called from Perth. :D made a perfect end to a great birthDAY.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
saying goodbye
saying goodbye sucks. to a friend i've known for years. and also to a friend i've known for....3 weeks? although the latter is definitely being more of a friend than the former. sigh* how do people get so cold and distant all of a sudden??? how does the closeness just vanish overnight??? at the same time, how do people get so close overnight too?? weird world!!!
whatever it is...i'm gonna miss these 2 people. :(
combine prayer meeting last nite - had a bad case of gastric... pastor prayed for me... i actually felt immediate relief. it still hurt a lil but at least i could stand. believing God for complete healing for my stomach and abdominal area.... been having tummy problems for too long. i know my God can heal!!!
whatever it is...i'm gonna miss these 2 people. :(
combine prayer meeting last nite - had a bad case of gastric... pastor prayed for me... i actually felt immediate relief. it still hurt a lil but at least i could stand. believing God for complete healing for my stomach and abdominal area.... been having tummy problems for too long. i know my God can heal!!!
Friday, February 18, 2005
: : Bring Me Back : :
I'm wandering on the wide path
the easy way
but I feel lost
I don't know what I'm doing
I want to be close to You...
Holy Spirit, bring me back
back to the narrow path
where I can walk with You
where my life makes sense again
where no matter what problems may come my way
as long as You're holding my hand
I know I can overcome anything
My life seems fine
there's no pain, no tears
but I feel far from You
and that's all that matters
I want to be close to You...
the easy way
but I feel lost
I don't know what I'm doing
I want to be close to You...
Holy Spirit, bring me back
back to the narrow path
where I can walk with You
where my life makes sense again
where no matter what problems may come my way
as long as You're holding my hand
I know I can overcome anything
My life seems fine
there's no pain, no tears
but I feel far from You
and that's all that matters
I want to be close to You...
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Rum Jungle + chor tai ti
last night was interesting... had the most spontaneous KL trip ever!! we were just mamaking in dharoos till 12 sumthing... suddenly someone suggests going to kl. "okay" came our replies. :P
so 3 of us neighbours head home to change and then down to Rum Jungle. first time being there.. really cool place! i like it!! :D
after the place closed, we went to mamak again since the guys were hungry... then back to paramount garden!! yes, im so amused with the fact that i now have neighbour friends.. hehe...
so we continue our craziness in jon's place by playing chor tai ti... was hilarious!! i couldn't stop laughing... raj being the cause of most of the laughter. sigh* it's so sad that jon is going back home to perth next monday.. :( gonna miss him. oh ya! we took lotsa photos!! grin* anyways, we didnt realize the time passing.. before we knew it, it was 7am!!! siao!!! back home to bed it was... and i had to wake up at 10 sumthing too...
been a dead fish most of today althought it was eventful ... visited tung hong & parents. had GREAT home cooked and baked food. yummy! came home at 6 sumthing, just to get my car and head to midvalley to meet kris and parents for dinner. popped into jon's place before leaving to say hi to him and raj. wish i could be out with them again tonite but...im too tired... yawn*
dinner with the Tan's was awesome.... good food...and then just hung out in their hotel room... was getting really sleepy...
man!! thinking bout the work load i haven't touched and which is due when classes restart.... SCARY!!
~work work work~
so 3 of us neighbours head home to change and then down to Rum Jungle. first time being there.. really cool place! i like it!! :D
after the place closed, we went to mamak again since the guys were hungry... then back to paramount garden!! yes, im so amused with the fact that i now have neighbour friends.. hehe...
so we continue our craziness in jon's place by playing chor tai ti... was hilarious!! i couldn't stop laughing... raj being the cause of most of the laughter. sigh* it's so sad that jon is going back home to perth next monday.. :( gonna miss him. oh ya! we took lotsa photos!! grin* anyways, we didnt realize the time passing.. before we knew it, it was 7am!!! siao!!! back home to bed it was... and i had to wake up at 10 sumthing too...
been a dead fish most of today althought it was eventful ... visited tung hong & parents. had GREAT home cooked and baked food. yummy! came home at 6 sumthing, just to get my car and head to midvalley to meet kris and parents for dinner. popped into jon's place before leaving to say hi to him and raj. wish i could be out with them again tonite but...im too tired... yawn*
dinner with the Tan's was awesome.... good food...and then just hung out in their hotel room... was getting really sleepy...
man!! thinking bout the work load i haven't touched and which is due when classes restart.... SCARY!!
~work work work~
Friday, February 11, 2005
where to start?
where should i start? i havent updated this blog in ages. been lazy. heh...
life...i wouldn't say it's been bad...neither has it been good.
bad things - precious friend avoiding me... feeling lonely sometimes... seem to keep more things to myself now...especially when i'm down... don't know what i'm doing sometimes... still feel like giving up sometimes... like everything's too difficult... missing someone...
good things - a certain friendship getting better again... God is still with me even when i'm STUPID... family time has been good... bought my COAT! :D n some other "stuff", at last... had supper and a good chat with audrey; "thanks auds!!! we'll be having more of these chats rite??" .... looking forward to seeing some friends tomorrow...
hmmm...can't really think now...sleeppyyyy....
a few updates:
family dinner this year (8 Feb 2005) was different. us KIDS had to do the cooking! but it was fun... and us cousins had a good time together in the kitchen!! :D was sad that kev and alee couldn't be with us though... well, our cooking was pretty good... we got all our parent's approval. grin* and while we were "slaving" in the kitchen, the adults were playing scrabble out in the hall. later that night, the kids beat the adults flat in BOGGLE!!! wooo hoooo!!! we've grown smarter! lol...
they next day...visiting time!!! from PJ to Cheras to Ampang to Midvalley...went to visit some grandaunts since our grandparents are no longer around...as well as daddy's kor kor's place... was good to see some cousins there...and a niece.. my nephew wasn't there though. hopefully will see him tomorrow during the dinner (paternal side). my lil malay cousin has grown so tall!! looks more like a primary school kid rather than a 4 year old. she's so pretty... if only she wasn't so shy... reminds me of myself when i was young - won't talk to anyone but my mummy & daddy. hehe...
looking at my life now...the trials just doesn't stop coming...it's a roller coaster ride... up & down.. round & round... sigh* can't wait to go to Acheh or any other Tsunami affected country. although it'll be dangerous, i'd rather be there to see their suffering and learn to appreciate what i have. plus all my lil problems will seem insignificant then. my heart really does go out to these people...watching the videos of people losing their loved ones makes me cry...
"God...please comfort them...for nothing and no one can do so...."
~to bed~ zzzzz
life...i wouldn't say it's been bad...neither has it been good.
bad things - precious friend avoiding me... feeling lonely sometimes... seem to keep more things to myself now...especially when i'm down... don't know what i'm doing sometimes... still feel like giving up sometimes... like everything's too difficult... missing someone...
good things - a certain friendship getting better again... God is still with me even when i'm STUPID... family time has been good... bought my COAT! :D n some other "stuff", at last... had supper and a good chat with audrey; "thanks auds!!! we'll be having more of these chats rite??" .... looking forward to seeing some friends tomorrow...
hmmm...can't really think now...sleeppyyyy....
a few updates:
family dinner this year (8 Feb 2005) was different. us KIDS had to do the cooking! but it was fun... and us cousins had a good time together in the kitchen!! :D was sad that kev and alee couldn't be with us though... well, our cooking was pretty good... we got all our parent's approval. grin* and while we were "slaving" in the kitchen, the adults were playing scrabble out in the hall. later that night, the kids beat the adults flat in BOGGLE!!! wooo hoooo!!! we've grown smarter! lol...
they next day...visiting time!!! from PJ to Cheras to Ampang to Midvalley...went to visit some grandaunts since our grandparents are no longer around...as well as daddy's kor kor's place... was good to see some cousins there...and a niece.. my nephew wasn't there though. hopefully will see him tomorrow during the dinner (paternal side). my lil malay cousin has grown so tall!! looks more like a primary school kid rather than a 4 year old. she's so pretty... if only she wasn't so shy... reminds me of myself when i was young - won't talk to anyone but my mummy & daddy. hehe...
looking at my life now...the trials just doesn't stop coming...it's a roller coaster ride... up & down.. round & round... sigh* can't wait to go to Acheh or any other Tsunami affected country. although it'll be dangerous, i'd rather be there to see their suffering and learn to appreciate what i have. plus all my lil problems will seem insignificant then. my heart really does go out to these people...watching the videos of people losing their loved ones makes me cry...
"God...please comfort them...for nothing and no one can do so...."
~to bed~ zzzzz
Friday, January 14, 2005
life.....and LIFE CAFE!!!
classes...F.R.I.E.N.D.S....hot sun...spoilt fan...chatting...music...singing...dancing...lectures....tutorials...black out....hot!!! class cancelled!!! wheee...ericson...dance practice...gym...mission's trip meeting... n finally...LIFE CAFE!!!
the ambience was nice...could smell the food...tummy growling...music playing...emcees were great..."welcome welcome"...yadda yadda yadda....MAKAN TIME!!! sigh* i seemed alot hungrier before i started eating... don't know why i seem to lose my appetite everytime there's a barbeque. :( oh well...it was fun anyway... games time... met quite a few new people...all friendly & sporting!! :) was funny making fools of ourselves... lol...
fellowship...berbonding...song presentations by alvin, lenard, darren & last of all our FAN DANCE!! but guess what!! nearing our dance, Leona comes up to me "who's having our song???".. i stare at her blankly...silence...AAAAAAHH!!! we start running around...."AUDREY!! do u have the song???" "was i supposed to bring it?" "oh man!!" "LAPTOP!! do u have ur laptop?".." yes, but i don't think i have the song.." "CELINE!!! ur pen drive!! did u bring it??" "yes.." "is the song still in it??" "yes" .."AAAAAHH!! YES!!!" *all of us run to the laptop with the pen drive* "NOOO!! it can't read it!!" *running around again* "BOSS!!!!" to cut it short, Leona n boss had to go up to his place to burn the song.. :P we're such bozos!!! hahahahhaha....
finally... we're ready...the song's playing... wait a minute.. what the??? where are the words?? oh my gosh!! what's wrong with the song??!?!? what the heck!! the dance has to go on...so we had to dance to some weird, second voice, sounds n music only, techno-ish song... ROFL... weird and annoying... but nevermind.. guess we did OOOkay...
Praise GOD that everything went pretty well.... people had fun... n most of all...we got to fellowship with SO MANY new people. what's more? no one wanted to leave when it was over....everyone was still hanging around even when the chairs n tables were taken away. the guards had to chase us away.
one more night to go!! although i won't be there... but i pray that everyone will be blessed!! AMEN!!
the ambience was nice...could smell the food...tummy growling...music playing...emcees were great..."welcome welcome"...yadda yadda yadda....MAKAN TIME!!! sigh* i seemed alot hungrier before i started eating... don't know why i seem to lose my appetite everytime there's a barbeque. :( oh well...it was fun anyway... games time... met quite a few new people...all friendly & sporting!! :) was funny making fools of ourselves... lol...
fellowship...berbonding...song presentations by alvin, lenard, darren & last of all our FAN DANCE!! but guess what!! nearing our dance, Leona comes up to me "who's having our song???".. i stare at her blankly...silence...AAAAAAHH!!! we start running around...."AUDREY!! do u have the song???" "was i supposed to bring it?" "oh man!!" "LAPTOP!! do u have ur laptop?".." yes, but i don't think i have the song.." "CELINE!!! ur pen drive!! did u bring it??" "yes.." "is the song still in it??" "yes" .."AAAAAHH!! YES!!!" *all of us run to the laptop with the pen drive* "NOOO!! it can't read it!!" *running around again* "BOSS!!!!" to cut it short, Leona n boss had to go up to his place to burn the song.. :P we're such bozos!!! hahahahhaha....
finally... we're ready...the song's playing... wait a minute.. what the??? where are the words?? oh my gosh!! what's wrong with the song??!?!? what the heck!! the dance has to go on...so we had to dance to some weird, second voice, sounds n music only, techno-ish song... ROFL... weird and annoying... but nevermind.. guess we did OOOkay...
Praise GOD that everything went pretty well.... people had fun... n most of all...we got to fellowship with SO MANY new people. what's more? no one wanted to leave when it was over....everyone was still hanging around even when the chairs n tables were taken away. the guards had to chase us away.
one more night to go!! although i won't be there... but i pray that everyone will be blessed!! AMEN!!
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
: : ETERNALLY : :
i look to the sky
fluffy clouds in endless blue
n i think "how beautiful"
i look at the trees around me
the grass adorned with flowers
oh so brightly...
how wonderful our God created
the earth & all within it
how marvelous He made us
in His own awesome image
just to be with Him
eternally...
sometimes life seems meaningless
full of troubles & sadness
"what's the point?" we wonder
how can we not remember?
that Christ will come again
to take us home to be with Him
it's beautiful
it's unbelievable
it's indescribable
it's undeniable
eternally...
fluffy clouds in endless blue
n i think "how beautiful"
i look at the trees around me
the grass adorned with flowers
oh so brightly...
how wonderful our God created
the earth & all within it
how marvelous He made us
in His own awesome image
just to be with Him
eternally...
sometimes life seems meaningless
full of troubles & sadness
"what's the point?" we wonder
how can we not remember?
that Christ will come again
to take us home to be with Him
it's beautiful
it's unbelievable
it's indescribable
it's undeniable
eternally...
Monday, January 10, 2005
CUZ time!!!
and so....there's no more excuses for not studying... Cyber Christmas is over...well, sorta, after LIFE CAFE anyway. gotta work hard this semester! sigh* it's what i say EVERY sem! but i really gotta get things together... been pretty slack for the past few sems.
CC...many dissapointments...discouragement...arguments...tears...in the end, we had to just surrender it to God, & let Him use whatever we had to touch & make an impact on those who came for the event. I guess God was teaching many of us to TRUST Him & not to depend on our own abilities and strength.after the night, there were still certain things & words said that left me hurt & disappointed. but i just thank God that the message WAS still delivered through the drama & band.
COUSINS!! man!!! at last!! i get to see my "kor kor Kevin"!! yes...that's what we all used to call him when we were younger. coz he's the oldest cousin. of course now it's just "kev". :P it's been at least 2 years since i last saw him. it's so sad though that his sister couldn't make it back...Justin's back though. Val's always been around. so it's only Alicia who's MIA. now there's only 5 of us together, when there should be 6. thinking back on all the good times we had together. we practically knew each other ALL our lives. grew up together. ate together, bathed together, played together, got caned together... LOL...
FRI & SAT - tiring but fun and pleasant. friday night, after dinner in Kim Gary's, 5 of us + kev's friends played boggle & CHARADES!! hahahaa....THAT was fun!!! we all laughed till we cried!! :D especially when justin had to act out "i'm having premenstruation period pains"!!! ROFL....
saturday - took them to The Curve, IKEA, IKANO & Tesco. had lotsa coffee & curry puffs in IKEA. :P later that night, we went to hartamas to look for our uncle's restaurant pub, "Backyard". some aunties and second cousins were there too. had dinner there then left to play pool & foosball!!! wheeee... was fun!! :)
oh well...it's a week of classes again...can't wait for the weekend to see them again....
* hope i get to go to NZ to join kev & alee there.
CC...many dissapointments...discouragement...arguments...tears...in the end, we had to just surrender it to God, & let Him use whatever we had to touch & make an impact on those who came for the event. I guess God was teaching many of us to TRUST Him & not to depend on our own abilities and strength.after the night, there were still certain things & words said that left me hurt & disappointed. but i just thank God that the message WAS still delivered through the drama & band.
COUSINS!! man!!! at last!! i get to see my "kor kor Kevin"!! yes...that's what we all used to call him when we were younger. coz he's the oldest cousin. of course now it's just "kev". :P it's been at least 2 years since i last saw him. it's so sad though that his sister couldn't make it back...Justin's back though. Val's always been around. so it's only Alicia who's MIA. now there's only 5 of us together, when there should be 6. thinking back on all the good times we had together. we practically knew each other ALL our lives. grew up together. ate together, bathed together, played together, got caned together... LOL...
FRI & SAT - tiring but fun and pleasant. friday night, after dinner in Kim Gary's, 5 of us + kev's friends played boggle & CHARADES!! hahahaa....THAT was fun!!! we all laughed till we cried!! :D especially when justin had to act out "i'm having premenstruation period pains"!!! ROFL....
saturday - took them to The Curve, IKEA, IKANO & Tesco. had lotsa coffee & curry puffs in IKEA. :P later that night, we went to hartamas to look for our uncle's restaurant pub, "Backyard". some aunties and second cousins were there too. had dinner there then left to play pool & foosball!!! wheeee... was fun!! :)
oh well...it's a week of classes again...can't wait for the weekend to see them again....
* hope i get to go to NZ to join kev & alee there.
Monday, December 27, 2004
dEppReSsiNg NiGhT
was watching the news.... EARTHQUAKE!! sri lanka...indonesia...kelantan...kedah...PENANG!! TANJUNG BUNGAH!! MAR VISTA!! LANGKAWI!! DEATHS!!
my heart dropped. the blood drained from my face. i actually felt like fainting. face felt so cold...heart was practically trying to burst out of my chest. i rushed to the phone... called him... CANT GET THRU!! panic!! called her...YES!! she's okay!!! she said everyone's fine... THANK GOD!! made a few more calls n messages. thank God all my friends n loved ones are safe... this disaster really makes u realize how fragile life is. u can just "go" anyday. n it really makes u value life...n ur loved ones... i pray that God will protect them from harm.
but the news was so depressing...seeing people having to look in bags with bodies to identify their relatives.... i seriously can't imagine MYSELF being them. i was really praying for God to comfort those who lost their loved ones.
man!! these are really signs of the end times... it's scary...
besides the news... friends are going through depressing n upsetting situations too... SIGH*
what a depressing night!!
my heart dropped. the blood drained from my face. i actually felt like fainting. face felt so cold...heart was practically trying to burst out of my chest. i rushed to the phone... called him... CANT GET THRU!! panic!! called her...YES!! she's okay!!! she said everyone's fine... THANK GOD!! made a few more calls n messages. thank God all my friends n loved ones are safe... this disaster really makes u realize how fragile life is. u can just "go" anyday. n it really makes u value life...n ur loved ones... i pray that God will protect them from harm.
but the news was so depressing...seeing people having to look in bags with bodies to identify their relatives.... i seriously can't imagine MYSELF being them. i was really praying for God to comfort those who lost their loved ones.
man!! these are really signs of the end times... it's scary...
besides the news... friends are going through depressing n upsetting situations too... SIGH*
what a depressing night!!
Friday, December 24, 2004
stuff
when u've been stabbed too many times...it doesn't seem to hurt anymore...u kindda just feel blank and empty. maybe coz all the blood has drained away. n all ur nerves are dead. heh..
well..Christmas is coming... hopefully it'll come with JOY & LOVE that i need so badly now!!
"Jesus...please help me to stop being stupid. Help me to focus on the important things in life..."
i'm pretty looking forward to seeing old church friends tonight...& then maybe chilling awhile at close friend's houses...
i miss my cousins...wish they were all back here...miss the times when we would spend EVERY Christmas together... sigh* why must we grow up and graduate and start working and get busy with our lives? life as kids was so much more pleasant and fun!!
JoY tO ThE wORLd...the LoRd iS CoMe...LeT eArTh ReCeiVe hEr KING!!!
BleSSed ChRiStMaS everyone!!!
well..Christmas is coming... hopefully it'll come with JOY & LOVE that i need so badly now!!
"Jesus...please help me to stop being stupid. Help me to focus on the important things in life..."
i'm pretty looking forward to seeing old church friends tonight...& then maybe chilling awhile at close friend's houses...
i miss my cousins...wish they were all back here...miss the times when we would spend EVERY Christmas together... sigh* why must we grow up and graduate and start working and get busy with our lives? life as kids was so much more pleasant and fun!!
JoY tO ThE wORLd...the LoRd iS CoMe...LeT eArTh ReCeiVe hEr KING!!!
BleSSed ChRiStMaS everyone!!!
Sunday, December 12, 2004
???
where am i?
what did i do?
where do i go?
what am i feeling?
how do i leave this place?
how do i focus?
God help me...i'm dying inside...
what did i do?
where do i go?
what am i feeling?
how do i leave this place?
how do i focus?
God help me...i'm dying inside...
Friday, December 10, 2004
BiTTeR sWeeT
so many thoughts in my head....i can't think straight.... how did this happen???
how did i fall for u? how did i lose u? why can't i let u go? why does it hurt so bad? why can't i stop crying? if we're not meant to be, why did our paths have to cross?
-bitter sweet-
that's the only way i can describe the trip. it was fun. it was so great being close to u again. n yet it kept ripping my heart out. it was as if i had a wound...n someone started stabbing n scratching at it.
why do u do the things u do? i feel like i caused it. i feel like i am to blame.
part of me is happy that i made this visit. coz now it seems like i am weaker. i'd rather be the one hurting then to see u hurt. n i've seen the friends ur with. the company u have. they're all wonderful people. i love them. n they adore u. u have so much around u. i don't know why u ever felt like u needed me. u don't.
u have such a bright future before u. i'm glad i'm not in the way to stop that. maybe my purpose in your life was to ease ur study days in KL. but now, i'll only be a burden. glad i was there when u needed someone. now it's time for us to move on...our different ways...
my heart aches. i miss u. but there's nothing i can do.
-broken-
how did i fall for u? how did i lose u? why can't i let u go? why does it hurt so bad? why can't i stop crying? if we're not meant to be, why did our paths have to cross?
-bitter sweet-
that's the only way i can describe the trip. it was fun. it was so great being close to u again. n yet it kept ripping my heart out. it was as if i had a wound...n someone started stabbing n scratching at it.
why do u do the things u do? i feel like i caused it. i feel like i am to blame.
part of me is happy that i made this visit. coz now it seems like i am weaker. i'd rather be the one hurting then to see u hurt. n i've seen the friends ur with. the company u have. they're all wonderful people. i love them. n they adore u. u have so much around u. i don't know why u ever felt like u needed me. u don't.
u have such a bright future before u. i'm glad i'm not in the way to stop that. maybe my purpose in your life was to ease ur study days in KL. but now, i'll only be a burden. glad i was there when u needed someone. now it's time for us to move on...our different ways...
my heart aches. i miss u. but there's nothing i can do.
-broken-
Thursday, December 02, 2004
about "u"
thought about u today...
missed u...
didn't realize i missed u this much...
my heart ached...
my tears flowed...
wish u knew i still care...always will...
wish u knew i still love u...i do...
hope i won't break down when i see u...
hope u won't hurt when u see me...
missed u...
didn't realize i missed u this much...
my heart ached...
my tears flowed...
wish u knew i still care...always will...
wish u knew i still love u...i do...
hope i won't break down when i see u...
hope u won't hurt when u see me...
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
Monday, November 29, 2004
major attack
was praying for friends....suddenly realized that EVERYONE is having relational problems at the moment...there are SOOOO many relationship problems going on around me. may it be girl with girl, guy with guy, girl with guy or guy with girl...they're everywhere...robbing everyone of unity n love.
it dawned upon me that this IS Satan's major attack plan - to break us all up...to divide us n make us weak...to take away our love for each other...to take away the efficiency of us working together as one in the body of Christ. so WHY ON EARTH ARE WE LETTING HIM WIN??!?!?!are we out of our minds?!?!?!?!
it's so obvious that this isn't just a coincidence that just about EVERYone that i think of IS having some kindda relational problem. it's so obvious that the easiest way to cause us to lose our focus is to play with our hearts, our emotions. once the devil gets us there, we can't do anything anymore. we can't concentrate on ANYTHING!! we can't get ANYTHING done!! we can't focus on the important things in life; like touching people's lives with God's love...like helping the less fortunate...like being more sensitive to those who really need our care n love. instead, we get so entangled in this mess of relationship problems that our lives revolve around it. n we just dwell in the hurt, the disappointment, the pain , anger, the sadness...
it's time we pick ourselves up people!!! are u hearing me?!?! we really gotta stand up and FIGHT against all this nonsense that is breaking us up! where's our LOVE? where's our GRACE? where's our UNITY? i myself am guilty of falling into this trap. but let's help each other out. let's laugh at Satan's face when he realizes he's failed.
"Father God, i just ask for strength to come upon ALL of us right now!! ALL of us who feel to weak to fight against these problems... i pray for LOVE to fill our hearts...FORGIVENESS to
fill our hearts...i ask that You help us guard our hearts n minds from the fiery darts of the enemy. help us stand strong united in You...in Jesus' POWERFUL name, AMEN!!!"
Colossians 3
vs 13
Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.
vs 14
And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.
vs 15
Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace.
[The attitude of peace that Christ alone gives; in place of the attitude of bitterness and quarrelsomeness. This attitude is to RULE in ALL HUMAN RELATIONSHIPS]- from NIV study bible.
it dawned upon me that this IS Satan's major attack plan - to break us all up...to divide us n make us weak...to take away our love for each other...to take away the efficiency of us working together as one in the body of Christ. so WHY ON EARTH ARE WE LETTING HIM WIN??!?!?!are we out of our minds?!?!?!?!
it's so obvious that this isn't just a coincidence that just about EVERYone that i think of IS having some kindda relational problem. it's so obvious that the easiest way to cause us to lose our focus is to play with our hearts, our emotions. once the devil gets us there, we can't do anything anymore. we can't concentrate on ANYTHING!! we can't get ANYTHING done!! we can't focus on the important things in life; like touching people's lives with God's love...like helping the less fortunate...like being more sensitive to those who really need our care n love. instead, we get so entangled in this mess of relationship problems that our lives revolve around it. n we just dwell in the hurt, the disappointment, the pain , anger, the sadness...
it's time we pick ourselves up people!!! are u hearing me?!?! we really gotta stand up and FIGHT against all this nonsense that is breaking us up! where's our LOVE? where's our GRACE? where's our UNITY? i myself am guilty of falling into this trap. but let's help each other out. let's laugh at Satan's face when he realizes he's failed.
"Father God, i just ask for strength to come upon ALL of us right now!! ALL of us who feel to weak to fight against these problems... i pray for LOVE to fill our hearts...FORGIVENESS to
fill our hearts...i ask that You help us guard our hearts n minds from the fiery darts of the enemy. help us stand strong united in You...in Jesus' POWERFUL name, AMEN!!!"
Colossians 3
vs 13
Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.
vs 14
And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.
vs 15
Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace.
[The attitude of peace that Christ alone gives; in place of the attitude of bitterness and quarrelsomeness. This attitude is to RULE in ALL HUMAN RELATIONSHIPS]- from NIV study bible.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
